[堕落天使]

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2009-05-10T18:47:00.004+08:00

Poly has started . Hope everyone is doing well . Havent been in good health , hahas . But don't worry , I'm coping life well . Just reprimanded 3 friends today . Oh well . Please support Solace Boi Boi's blog , he have nice contents =) You can get to his blog from my link section , or click here . I wanna go for a body check up . But I can't bring myself to tell my parents for they will be very worried , even tho they suggested it before . Haiz . There's 2 types of death in this world , and there's 2 kind of scenario . The 2 deaths : 1 is die of natural course , the other 1 die of unnatural course ( commit suicide , murdered , accident ) . The 2 scenario : 1 is die in peace , the other 1 is die with regrets ( unfulfilled wishes , didnt want to die , etc ) . Death will find it's way to us some day anyway , all I wish is to live life to it's fullest . When I die someday , I hope there are friends sending me off , and also especially my love ones . Hehs . Sounds like I'm dying right ? Hahaha .. Death is not the end , but another beginning . Even god makes mistakes , humans are bound to make mistakes as well . But not everyone is gracious enough to forgive . A person who loves you a lot and another person who you loves a lot , which will you choose ? The answer is apparent .

Hope. Wish. Pray..

2009-03-24T03:16:00.001+08:00

The day I post my return to the blog, something happened. I and my laopo who have lasted for 2 days before 4th month, broke up.. Emotions ran throughout my body, causing me to be unstable. My heart was torn apart.. I always had a broken heart due to family problems. She succeeded in putting them whole again, but now it's in a much worse state than it used to be.. I love you laopo.. I really do.. I hope all readers out there help me by praying with me for my beloved's return.. Even tho I don't know how long will it take, but I've decided to wait for her, no matter what happens, even if the chances are slim, I will persevere and let my love towards her open that fragile yet beautiful heart for me once and for all eternity, just like what she had done for me. . Why did we broke up? I'm the main reason why we broke up bahx.. 1 week after Friday the 13th which is 20th of March, you had to go Orchard to prepare for your SYF competition costume.. I have to teach tuition on that day, thus I weren't able to go with you, so you called your di for his accompany. I didnt like the idea, but you assured me, nothing will happen, nothing will happen.. So I trusted you, even though I said something which could have upset/hurt you.. After you left, I checked the conversation of you and your di coz I wanna know about his sad past too. But what I saw was beyond what I could have imagined.. Her didi obviously have feelings for her, and she even said things like dun fall in love with other people for her sake.. I saw she wrote a lot of things that she was unhappy with me. This I can understand, cause it's really my fault, I have not realise that the actions I unintentionally did have caused you so much hurt. But why didn't you just tell me solemnly, make me understand since you really love me. Haiz.. You asked if I want to meet you after tuition, of course I want, silly laopo. Then after tuition, I asked where were u, and u told me that u're still with ur di at Orchard Takashimaya. So I asked you expect me to go so far ar? Can meet at Dhoby Ghaut? Then you asked ur di and he didnt want to, so you told me to go home first.. It hurts, double blow.. Wanted to meet you right after tuition, then can go buy dinner together, but you asked me to go home first.. I'm not wrong to feel this way, cause you're the person I love what, I really treasure our times together. I love you.. I felt upset that now you've even set your priority to him. Out of anger, I said "Fine do whatever you want, I don't care le lah!" Hmmm... Don't care? How possible? Then we smsed each other, but I just keep letting my anger and jealousy take over me, thus I said really harsh words.. I'm really sorry.. Then I said that it'd be better for the both of us if we remained as kor and mei.. and you replied, you always liddat say de.. The stupidest thing I did later, was to say to break.. This has became my living regret. You said that I should not do things that I'll regret, but I didnt regret being with you, why must you insist on leaving? You told me never give up on you, but why must you give up on me? My heart really hurts a lot, I've seriously never feel this kind of pain before, not even once for my previous relationships.. This proves that I seriously love you, but you no longer feels the same way.. I knew that you 2 will definitely kiss and hug, like we used to, I really cannot stand this poison spreading in my heart. I called to apologise and was very emotional that I was crying all the way. People were looking and also laughing at me but I just heck care them because you're the most important thing to me, I don't care about my pride.. Why didn't you give me another chance, all I thought was to hurt myself physically when we were on the phone. I didnt want to threaten you, it hurt so much in the heart that I'd rather receive physical pain. I really don't want to lose you.. I've not slept since 20th March until now 24th March 2:41am and I'm still awake typing.. Weren't your love so strong for me that nothing will break us apart? Because of my flaws you abandoned me, you xian qi me.. You said that you gave me a lot of chances to change everyday, but I didn't realise.. Sorry laopo.. I was stupid. Wanted you to come home so badly, then my phone no batt.. I ran home as fast as possible to charge and called you again.. Please don't leave me.. I prayed. You told me you'll be leaving at 8+, I suppose you're gonna spend time with him.. Having someone you love so much hugging and kissing with another person, it's far more worse than just having the fear of it. How I wish I was borned on 1993.. During the period where I was home alone, I was petrified. I don't know what to do, I've never experience this before, why am I experiencing it.. I cannot take the fact that my heart hurt so much, so I wanted to cut myself. Dunno whether I'm lucky or not, I cut with no bleed. You came back at around 9+. I realised that my laopo isnt my laopo anymore.. She's not looking at me into my eyes and didn't give me that always managed to make me happy de smile. Haiz.. Misery.. To be continued..

Laopo wrote all this for me..

Recollection

2009-03-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm posting something again. My audience seems to have stopped viewing my blog, I'm so glad to see Kelvin still visiting my blog, hahas. Anyways, while new chapter unfolds, new group of audience will find their way here eventually, and new life adventures will be on the go. Don't worry, I'm doing fine. Sorry if anyone of you out there felt neglected by me, I've been on a tight schedule xP If you wanna chat or anything, feel free to sms me or msn me k? That's all for now. Takecares everyone ^^ Looking forward to Choon Keat's chalet on the 27th of March =)

Kekiyo Uchida.

Love :o

2008-11-20T03:41:00.002+08:00

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle.

Girl : Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy : No, this is fun.
Girl : No it's not, please, it's so scary.
Guy : Then tell me that you love me.
Girl : I love you, slow down.
Guy : Now give me a big hug..
*She gave him a big hug*
Guy : Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's really bothering me.
The next day in the newspaper:
"A motorcycle crashed into a building due to brake failure.
Two people were in the crash, but only one survived."
The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks weren't working, but he didn't want the girl to know.
Instead, he had her hug him and tell him she loves him one last time.
Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live, even if it meant that he would die.

Something to share with you all about love.

Kekiyo Uchida.

Happy birthday to me!!!

2008-11-15T03:25:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since I last posted, I'm gonna make this blog alive again, possible mah? Let's make it possible =) At this moment, life seemed plain. No longer a need to go to school, no longer a need to study. The 'O' levels have passed, my life seemed to be passing by day by day without an aim.. Nope. That is not true. Currently I'm preparing myself for my prom night ^^ After prom night, I'll be finding a job to earn lots of money ^^ Then think of how to spend my money xP No lah, maybe will save my money, then when studying poly next year can buy myself a high quality laptop ^^ Anyway, on 14th November, Chin Kiang, Daren, Jesslyn, Kelvin, Kenneth, Marcus, Nelson, Qi Yin, Zhi Yang and me met at 1:40pm and went to Orchard for shopping. Was hungry because I haven't eaten anything yet. When we arrived at Orchard, we went to Far East Shopping Centre first. There's nothing much there, went there just to accompany Kenneth the birthday boy of the day to buy his psp =) After that, went to Far East Plaza, I realised a lot of shops selling male clothes have vanished, Chin Kiang bought his set of clothes there too. I must admit the clothes from that shop are quite nice =) Anyways, after that we decided to go Singapore Expo to EAT! xD My hobby x3 Ate Satay and Sharkfin ONLY!!! OMG.. I just realised I ate so little, normally I eat a lot more de!!! That explains why I was already feeling hungry in Tampines.. Then we took bus 27 and alight at the soccer field near Kelvin's house, went to his house to sleep while others went somewhere else. Actually I was just faking sleep then I heard Nelson telling others that I've fell asleep xP Well, soon after that Kelvin pulled me out of his room, saying some things which I felt was fishy xP Then I saw a birthday cake with candles lit in the living room, where it was pitch dark, then I guessed that they'd all be ambushing in the room with ps2, seeing David hiding in the master room, which the others couldnt be inside, they were actually hiding behind the sofa, then they were singing the birthday song, for me, I was like so touched! Thanks everybody, I really felt very touched that you all had actually bought cake and dessert to celebrate Kenneth's and my birthday! Somemore the cake still has my name written with choclate cream on it, altho it's spelt wrongly, but my gratitude for u all wouldn't be any lesser =D Million of thx to everybody.. Originally I didn't thought that you all would be celebrating my birthday on Kenneth's birthday, but then in the afternoon, Kelvin asked if can come my house borrow coat from me, then I was thinking, is he intending to come my house celebrate for me? Or whatever else, but it just doesn't make sense, so I stopped thinking much about it. Then later on when going back "home", Kelvin kept pestering me about the coat thingy, then is like everybody suddenly got involve in it saying me just go lend him the coat etc etc.. I smelt something fishy, definitely. Then after that I heard you all saying something about buying a cake, I thought it was just purely for Kenneth, but then you all saw me hearing the conversation and seemed shocked, at that moment I thought that you all were planning something for me, I was already feeling touched. After that I decided to cancel my meeting with another friend =x Not just because I know you all want celebrate with me then cancel the meeting, also because I think I shouldn't just walk out since Kenneth's birthday celebration phase is still continuing. In any case, I really had a happy time, and it's the first year where my friends actually make an effort to celebrate my birthday with me. Sincerest thanks to everybody. Also thank you Jesslyn for your hand made present, havent open it yet, shall open it when I've received all my presents bahx. Hopefully I'll receive pretty much more presents than usual xP Thanks for all the birthday messages everybody ^^ My post shall end here, and wow I wrote quite a lot, hehs. See ya ^^

Kekiyo Uchida.

Misses

2008-09-15T08:31:00.000+08:00

Long time no post le, miss my blog.. In school com lab now =)

Narrative writing.

2008-04-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

Jason's copy : Here

Jesslyn Teo's copy : Here

Good luck for the papers tomorrow.

Happy April Fool Day =)

2008-04-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

Hope u all had enough fun fooling around =) So busy recently, trying to get rid of problems == Well today was quite a successful day, it appears that my decision was correct. I wont regret it, also wont change my mind too. After all, I made a mistake, so much for my perfection, zzz.. Well, I really hope that I can get something precious, so much for unrevealables, but I'm not the only 1 wrong, or am I? We, ourselves, know the best, not to mention me. Sadly Shakugan no Shana Season II has ended. There SHOULD be a season III, but director plz make it a better 1 lah =/ If only I'm the director.. zzz... Being a part time model is cool isnt it? I get to take photos, and get paid x3 I should consider full time .. =/ Well there's still a lot to post, eg; 08/03,15/03 that I MUST post, haiz.. I wanna buy time!!! X.x

Lady Luck's boy =D

2008-03-05T23:15:00.001+08:00

Weee ~ Have been so lucky lately, hahas. Hope my good luck last. Good luck thingys today is that I didnt bring collar badge, I told prefect "Me first time never bring, can dun record my name?" And it kept me a clear record =D 2nd thing also not really considered, but I'll still say lah, since I'm happy, I buy fried dumpling always get 1 or 2 more de, hahas. Then after school I go KFC buy Crunchy Bites. I ordered 2 sets, the cooker only cooked 5, which is 1 set. Then supervisor gave me fries and asked me to wait while they prepare another 5. and so I waited, eating french fries happily and thinking if she'll treat me drinks, coz tt time she treated another guy too, i overheard it xD Then upon presenting my complete order, she asked if I wanted drinks or not. I replied a humble no, then after that she still went to take the drinks for me, so happy xD During evening time, I received an sms from the lady boss whr she tell me that her stall is having a clearance sale, all items at $10 each! OMG LAH!!! Her clothes are v nice lor, and they usually cost MORE than minimum $30 to $60 x.x Those vest all buy from her shop de, now selling at $10 each X.x OMG LAH!!! So I hurried there and see got what nice nice clothes to buy, but already got ppl there buying like siao le lor, someone even bought 15clothes at 1 go! It's a foreigner, which explains her richness, afterall those clothes are super duper cheap! You'll definitely not find any cheapers ones in town, unless is 2nd hand then maybe hv lah. I bought 3 of em =D Sadly there wasn't much of a choice, outstanding ones were already sold to people, and I'm patheticly trying to dig gold out of ashes x.x Hopefully when new stock comes she'll still sell em at $10 each xD I told Marcus about the sales and he was like OMG?! Hahas, we decided to go there on Saturday as one of the places to shop for clothes x3 I'm so happy god pampered me, but plz continue doing so =X

This whole thing cost $10 only! Excluding pants, and it's not seperate, but combined! Can you believe it?! $10 only !!!

I'm also still looking for EXPERIENCED PRIVATE TUTOR, tutor who doesnt THROW work at you then dunno ask. This kind of teaching method doesnt work on me lah, I want de is explain to me the basics, what I need to know and understand before I can even proceed with doing the questions, this teaching method is then SUITABLE for me =) Oh ya, anybody ~ I'm still selling Arts Fiesta tickets - Performance by my school's very own students. It is held at Singapore Polytechnic Convection Center near Dover MRT station on 20th March, thursday, next day is Good Friday which means Public Holiday =D Tickets are selling @ $10 each, no discount allowed, I dun earn comission or anything, I sell the ticket solely to help my teacher sell them. Please contact me through whichever medium or if u dunno how to contact me then leave a tag for me to contact you.

Marcus, Professor Ernest Wong, Kelvin, me =)
Professor Ernest Wong is the man who started superteen workshop which lead many teenagers to the road of successes, and bcoz of him, most of those aimless teenagers has now became very successful in their life. How successful? Well, that is for u to define, what is considered a successful thing? A lot of stuffs lah, I just cant post them here, or else everybody come here read then Professor Ernest Wong no business, lols. Anyway, a very very gd workshop! Do you have dreams? If no, what are u living for? If yes, how are u going to make ur dreams come true? Or u are just going to say it's a dream and will never come true? Come on, that's foolish thinking!

Anyway, I and her are still good frens, perharps? I'm not despo to get into relationships yet, I still have time. If your blood could save me, I'd ask for 1 drop. If your air could save me, I'd ask for 1 breath. If your tears could save me, I'd rather die D;

So much in believing, I still believes.
Lady Luck's boy,
Kekiyo Uchida,
Signing off ~

(=^_^=)

2008-02-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

hohoho.. I see they havent stead yet, that guy actually lied to me. Fine, I'll give him a taste of his own medicine ^x^ Still super addicted to DJ Max, omg it's a kind of drugs lah D; Superteen shall come later =) That's all for now, takecares all !

Kekiyo Uchida.

Fallen in Love...

2008-02-24T02:11:00.000+08:00

Well.. The title explains.. I thought I was strong enuff to accept whatever facts, but I was wrong. So I'm a human after all, I experience various emotions. But I shall be happy for her =) She finally found a stead =) It's all fated. and I'm super addicted to DJ Max xD Next post shall be regarding superteen workshop, stay tuned for it =)

Kekiyo Uchida.

Super Saturday X.x

2008-02-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

Wow, today woke up super early, and I am like so occupied for the whole day. Morning 9+ woke up, went to on the com, I wanna download Shakugan no Shana 17 D; But only chinese subs out, RAW also not out, wtf? Was suppose to meet ice daddy @ 12noon, but then I'm 20mins late, but I'm not the latest, being early is definitely no good thing, yea, definitely. Was supposed to have events, or rather competitions for Audition, but nvr go. Then took taxi to bugis, met some other people, booked movie tickets, Kung Fu Dunk 3pm show. It was around 2+ then, went to lan play audition =) Play till 2:45pm then need go watch the movie le. We went to sit at the cinema lobby, waiting for some people to come =) I bought 2 hot dogs and 1 large drinks and regular popcorn. It cost me $8 in total O.o Cheap..? Spoiler : In the movie, there's 3 girls who're willing to die for Jay Chou. Hees, who? Go watch it yourself bahx. After that Yu Zhen and her bro came, along with Bubbles the cute little dog xD Her bro also v cute, short short 1, and really acts like a kid x3 I wanna be a kid too D; Then after that took mrt to Lavender, go visit Yu Zhen's mum, hahas. Yu Zhen and family going for reunion dinner, she say she everyday eat sia, hahas, but then it's a good thing, or is it? Then the rest of us, about 10+ in total, took 3 different cabs to Grandlink Square play pool, hahas. I play until v jia lat, my first time was so much better lor X.x By the way this is my 2nd time. After playing pool we went to ice daddy's lan, Yu Zhen and her bro were there =) Then soon went to eat kfc x3 I didnt really went to buy dinner tho, no $ =) Have to wait for kind people give me food xP After that went back to ice daddy de lan, we all were playing together. Then slowly all gtg le, ice daddy told me I'm entering the events, I was like so shocked, Don Don's entering as well X.x I really am in no form lor =X I play 185bpm db4 nvr do cfm siol, liew.. So awkward.. That time already like 10+ le, so late liao, but bo bian lah =/ ice daddy's counting on me and don don, altho it was obvious who's likely to win 1st place X.x Went to Grandlink for the event, I'm participating in Beat Up with don don =) and Yu Zhen is participating in ballroom. So funny lor before the event we even "lao yu sheng" O.o Event started @ 12+ lah D; Have to handle my dad X.x I was really quite nervous as I didnt want to disappoint daddy lah D; I already said bye bye to first in fact xP Cause Don Don is definitely gonna win me. First eliminary round, You 136bpm, played with the DDs and got 1st, second eliminary round ,Can Can 150bpm, played with those who won the 1st 3 places in the first round and got 2nd, lost to don don by 8k =X Then final round, 3245 Techno Party, unexpectedly got 1st luhs, by right Don Don should get 1st, he have 800+ perfs and got 3rd while I hv 600+ perfs and got 1st =X Problem is he didnt blue beat up D; The com is kinda lag, but I think Don Don's com more lag, somemore I not used to the numpad =X But still pia dun care much already X.x Luckily the DD guy missed 1 time, then I happened to be able to catch up =D About 20k score apart for 1st and 2nd, I was really nervous X.x Sad lah we couldn't take both the 1st and 2nd place D; But then this time can say I lucky only, still have more stronger competitors, all I know is that I wan my event held in big O lan =X The lan which gives me perfs a lot xD Anyway, 1st winner gets $20 and 1 ppc, 2nd winner gets $10 and 1 ppc, 3rd gets $5 and 1 ppc. Dunno about the respective ppc values, but I think is 30k,10k,5k respectively O.o Then after the event went back city plaza find ice daddy, wanted to ask him give me $ take cab home 1, coz tt time already 1am+ X.X But then nvm suak, I use the money I just won bahx. Cab fee cost $16, so expensive X.x It's midnight after all, and I reached home at about 1:40am+ Originally want go celebrate Guo Wei's birthday in advance, but didn't, cause they're watching the movie I just watched, and thus didnt went to celebrate with him lor, so sorry X.X

Kekiyo Uchida.

2008-02-09T10:37:00.000+08:00

Wah, yesterday went to shop but shops not open. Coz last saturday I saw some clothes but hesitate nvr buy then wan buy le nvr open T.T Then went to Big O lan, there de com v good siol, I perf sibei lot sia !!! Maybe even better than bunk? xD So proud of myself x33 Not just Beat Up lor, normal mode I did chain up to x9, and every game at least will hv x2 xD and yay I'm finally lvl 34 x33 2 more levels to Pro =X Anyway, going for an event thingy later, then after that need celebrate Guo Wei's birthday. I still wan go bunk de leh D; But I feel like going Big O lan more xD Tatas ~

My record =D

BUA license passed x33

Highest Record =D

Level 34 le! 1 try pass =)

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

Weeee, finally new year has arrived. I wishes everyone a Happy Chinese New Year =) All I want to do now is to collect $$$$$$$ Then forget all the other unpleasant things for the moment =X Enjoy =D

Kekiyo Uchida.

Sunny day =)

2008-02-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

Things are going exceptionally well. I'm not emo le, some problems solved, and I found my dar dar ^^ But I'm still unattached =P Don't ask me lah, I wont tell anyone de, I meant EVERYONE. Probably still waiting for her appearance ^^ Don't be confused lah, I said I'm still unattached right? So looking forward to tomorrow, I'm more interested in after school events =) Saturday went out with Ice daddy, his rl brother O.o , Lophe who is a korean and kau de GM O.O We met at Aljunied mrt station, then went into the mrt station w8 for the train, train come le then we go in come out again decided to take taxi == Then took taxi to bugis, went to eat @ MOS burgers I think, I like the butterfly prawns ^^ and the stupid Mussels scalded my hands and my lips %#%#$%@# So paiseh sia == Then we went to lan shop find ppl, go arcade see see play play, then met up with a guy who ice daddy call him Sally o.o His ign should be Silv bahx, or not, and he claim to be called Selamat O.O Confusing X.x Then we went to walk walk in Bugis Village, then met up with ice daddy de mei her name is Zhen sth de =X Then she wanted to buy coloured lens, so went around asking, finding. Lophe had to go off suddenly, left without bidding farewell =X I find korean girls cool ! LOLS! Then Lophe took ice daddy de cigrettes and lighter along with her, hahas. Then we went to Penisular Plaza, I dunno go there do what =X There after that we went to QueensTown Shopping Center. There got a handful of nice clothes ^^ And wah the food smell there are so alluring X.x Bought 2 T-Shirts, first piece @ $28, 2nd 1 @ $26. So average $27 lor, lols. Then I saw a $48 shirt quite nice, but couldn't bear to buy it, I'm shopping but not making myself broke T.T Then after some time we left the shopping center to somewhere nearby, ice daddy and his bro bought those coloured with black stripes shirt, hilarious tho. Then went to hawker center eat. After that Silv hv to go off le, we drop him off at a nearby mrt station. He v clever 1 woh, Study at NTU at the age of 18 X.x Then the Literature book so thick, siao one x.x Then went to Bugis again. Walked around in the shops of Bugis Village, I didnt really buy any shirts there, I saw some really nice ones at Natural Project, but their shirt are so expensive can T.T Then went to Bugis Street to my fav shop bought clothes and accessories of $70, then get 1 $20 free shirt =D After that ice daddy saw a nice pants but dun hv his size, sad sia =X Then we went off to City Plaza le. If we headed back to Bugis Village, I'd hv burnt a big hole in my pocket =X Then ice didi went home le, left me ice daddy and his mei. I just realised City Plaza is not so far from where I live what =X Or maybe not, changed my ign to --NkZ-ErZi--, no more HitsugayaKun D; Tried to remake an account with that ign also cannot, sob T.T Anyway, after that went Grand Link center or whatever forget liao. There de lan like bunk sia got 30% exp and den for audi =) $1 per hr I think, then basement still hv pool =) Went home at 10:40, reached home 11:20+ The taxi driver gd sia, never charge me extra $2, somemore still v polite, say goodnight, hahas, good customer service =) Saturday is such a tiring day, but I enjoyed it =) I shall post about Sunday tomorrow, gtg now, byes ~

Kekiyo Uchida.

Enlightenment

2008-01-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

Wah sianz CA1 only I also cannot do well. So disappointed with myself.. Hope my E math get 40+/50 =X or A1 also can ^^ Shouldnt pin too much hope, or else the disappointment will be greater. I'm so happy today ^^ Maybe I'll stop being emo le =X But sianx at this sms rate my phone bills will burst X.x Sadly tomorrow not going anywhere le, Saturday de still on, Sunday still on waiting list. I'm so looking forward to the minute whr POA paper ends xD Maybe that's not the moment I'll be waiting for coz I may not be able to finish it on time X.x Anyway, I love everybody =D Those who really really hate me I also nothing to say le lor. Apology I also made le, the sin in my heart I also carried for some time le. I'm repentant. Be as stubborn as you like, this is me.

Kekiyo Uchida =D

Fear..

2008-01-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

Having terminated 1 of the paths, now I finally made a move. Knowing that there will be a dead end, I thought it would be fine. I'm moving on with fear, I know why. Tomorrow CA1 commences, what if my results are still sloppy.. Haiz.. Still wants to cry out loud.. I'm such a crybaby, but my tears are invisible.. Yea swinging of mood in school, emoing. The best way is distraction, silence will only sink myself into the depth of unhappiness. Was my decision reckless? Or maybe it's fine bcoz no one cares.. Rubbish.. Fate ar fate, are u feeling bored and therefore is playing with me? Please do not do that, because I can subdue you. The heart of swords, me and my secrets..

Kekiyo Uchida.

Emo ar..

2008-01-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

I'm planning on giving up a path which involves a friend, a foe, and her. Dunno what I'm saying huh? It's ok, dun hv to noe.. 1 down, 4 more to choose. Me and my complications, I feel like crying my heart out.. No matter how I wish things to be, they wont be the way I want.. I'm thinking, what would my future be like.. Total darkness..

Kekiyo Uchida.

2008-01-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

I have an attitude problem. So what? Not happy just fuck off lah. I'm easily annoyed by people, so what? Those juniors playing during the IT course, feel like giving them a piece of my mind.. Don't want pay attention jiu get out lah! Throw here throw there u think ur house ar? Cb... Trying to master Hands Up for beat up, stupid lag always make me miss, kns... Argh...

Kekiyo Uchida.

Different views..

2008-01-22T17:37:00.000+08:00

Downloaded Kau recently, juz found out that the fastest song they have is not 188bpm but 190bpm =) and I'm able to do the cfm xD and 178bpm beat up x3 I love fast songs beat up xD Too bad it's laggy maybe because I'm connecting to Korea from Singapore? whatever the reason is, auditionsea really sux to the core if compared to kau. Finally Shakugan no Shana Second 14 subs is out! zzZ... I waited so long sia, finally it is out xP Hmmm... What is love? I realise I lost my appetite nowadays, feeling hungry yet I felt full from the very first bite.. Haiz... Feeling pain in my own dreams, somebody told me maybe because I'm nervous about something.. But what is it? zzZ...

190bpm 4k cfm xD

178bpm beat up full combo xD Laggy =/

Ehehe.. The above pic shows a star with potrait done by Daren x3 "See-bee" is written on it, guess what? xD

Kekiyo Uchida.

Fallen Blade...

2008-01-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Trouble never stopped it's way to me, juz a few days I got myself into more troubles. Now I have 5 paths to choose, each will create a different lifeline for myself.. Haiz... Must be happy =) Looking pale again, am I really dying? No.. I am fated a longer life, therefore I will not die now.. How I wish someone formidable would abduct my heart, tsk.. Impossible, yet possible... Anyway, I'd like to comment on a complaint by Straits Time reader against Kym Ng. So what if her english is no good, afterall it's a mandarin host show and her english is something that everyone could understand. Your actions give me a feeling that u're discriminating her, insulting her professionalism. If you really think u're that good, why not you host the show? In my eyes I can see that she's making a very hard effort to speak good english, take "Wow! Singapore" or whatever that show is called broadcasting in channel U every tuesday 8:30pm, you can see that she could host the show using english to interact well with the foreigners. The foreigners aren't complaining, why should you? I'm so pissed by such people in the society.. Forgotten pleasant things I wanna post.. Nevermind I shall post it tomorrow.

Kekiyo Uchida.

BUA outing

2008-01-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today vomited 3 times in school. Looks like blood sia X.x So happy recently I still receive birthday presents from people, even tho it has passed about 2months ago le xD Today went bunk to meet Ice daddy =) Then there is this guy ask about whether i have dream car, dream house or dream career. Tsk, I just say no no no, then other 3 yes yes yes == It's like no link lor, why should i tell u my dreams anyway, when i dont even tell ppl close to me, tsk. Then walk to 7-11, told him i dun wan panadol le xP dun feel like eating, I hate panadols T.T Then go back bunk meet a lot people, hahas. Did my BUA test, I passed! For some reasons =X At first You still ok, but Mov Mov is really v stress, cause so many people looking at my result X.x But I still passed with 1 try =X Seriously lucky xD Anyway, there's a huge distance between my home pc and bunk pc, at home I always lag then cant perf lor =/ But in bunk it's easy xD How I wish I can buy myself a new com and make it's speed so fast like bunk liddat.. Boring ~ Thanks daddy and the other guy for the meal today ^^ I regretted not eating more xD lols.

Kekiyo Uchida.

Out again =)

2008-01-18T14:24:00.000+08:00

Downloaded Shakugan no Shana 14, no new op yet =( Seen the preview for episode 15, things are getting hyped up already =) Anyway, I'm going to PC bunk le, cya.

Kekiyo Uchida.

Tired/Sick.

2008-01-16T18:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Thinking of so many things, I experienced stress. Relationship thingys, always so complicated, so ma fan. Different people, different personalities. Everybody wears a mask, and you cant possibly see through what's up to their sleeves. I am really tired. Surprisingly I accept the thought of quitting school, but then, after all, this is my final year le.. Study well, leave school, have fun.. Sleeping so uncomfortably, wanted to sleep and never wake up. Life is precious, feeble as well. Nobody knows my past, nor what I've been through. How I wish my gan-family can substitute family love.. I'm sinking deep into the darkness, with light unable to reach me. People who cared about me, I mistreated them, causing them unhappiness.. I'm very sorry to those who I have hurt, u all were great friends, it's me with an attitude problem, psychology problem.. Wonder if the reason you remained single is because of me, or maybe I've been thinking too much. Hahas... Recently I can feel that my health have been detoriating.. Feeling very unbalance when walking sometimes is 1 symptom, what if I have a limited life.. Haiz... I wont be posting my personal stuffs le bahx, don't want make everybody emo, some people wont like it.. I am jealous.. I also want - - - - - -.

School.

2008-01-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

School started, and I've been busy with school stuffs, despite being absent 2 days after 1st day of school xD I really have much to post, but I'm really sorry that I'm so tied up that I don't even have time to post. Thank you people who still visits my blog, taggers, and also those who dun tag and have been reading my posts ^^ Well today I'm so tired that the first thing I did at home after settling down was sleep x.x Then after that I have to rush my homeworks, until midnight then I manage to finish them xP Anyway, to all classmates, I personally think that we should accept our teachers for who they are instead of constant complaints. Yea I know some teachers are just horrible, but it's not like you've got a choice. Our main purpose is to do well for 'O' levels and teachers are there to teach us and we MUST learn. Try to respect them and be more tolerant lah, although it may be difficult from what I've observed. Anyway, let us all work hard for our 'O' levels =) Now very late le, need go sleep liao. Also I'll be retracting the blog post "Quizzes" dated 010108 as it's ruining my blog in some ways. Go to my friendster if u're interested in it =) Cya people ~

PS: I seriously need a good tutor!!! X.x Please teach me if u're capable or u know someone capable, ty xP

Kekiyo Uchida.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2008-01-01T00:46:00.001+08:00

Time passes so fast and it's already the year 2008 =/ I hereby wishes everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! AND BOOOS WITH SCH REOPENING T.T

Kekiyo Uchida.

24th November 2007

2007-12-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 5am+, need to go cousin house =) Today is a very special day to her, bcoz it's her wedding day =) Why do I need to wake up so early in the morning? Oh, I was asked to open the Groom's car door ^^ Hees, got ang bao woh, why turn away free money =X Reached cousin house @ 6+? Ate something to fill my empty stomach, and soon I was told to pass something to the Groom. Guess what? It's the trials the groom has to go through b4 he can fetch the bride, hahas. And so, soon I was told what to do bcoz I'm a newbie, then can prepare to open the door le. People, it's just opening the car door, what could happen =.= So I opened the door, gave him 2 oranges then pass him the trial card, liddat get 1 angbao le, ehehe.. Then open door le, go back into the house, the guys went to the playground there, the groom has to say "I'm ur knight in shining armour, I love you" then the other guys making sounds like a horse? Hahas, hilarious lah, then after that still have trial, give the gals the ang bao and errr... eat weird foods? Sing songs? hahas, v fun lah, then finally made it into the house, still need sign what marriage certificate, so comical, I wanna marry too xD So after the groom finally meet it's bride, my job is done and I was given an ang bao by my aunt to go home first later bring family go bak again xD Alright, maybe my job was done long ago since i opened the car door == Anyways, went home took some pics...

Hamtaro O.o

Then... I went to sleep ^^ I'm tired lor, you can say I'm a pig, bleahx (=^oo^=) Then 1+ went back to aunt's house, got buffet lunch xD I'm starving =P then have jing cha ceremony, liddat get 1 more ang bao le, then after sometime main 2 characters dunno go whr le, then went hougang mall, mum and sis shopping for clothes? But never buy any in the end, then I was eating KFC xD Then go home, bathed, change to my suit, then asked my mum to wear sth nicer, ehehe xP oh my god the traffic is jamming, we still made it in time tho, we were EARLY, the others probably got stucked in the traffic bahx. Oh ya, i havent mention, The wedding ceremony is held at GoodWood Park Hotel in the Tudor Ballroom. When I just walked inside, the groom actually recognise me and said hello to me. Hahas, I wanna be like the groom can, so shuai, match with my cousin can say is heavenly matched xD While waiting let's see some photos ^^

ballroom also hv matrix, woots xD

and soon, here comes the groom and bride =D

Opps.. Over uploaded, hahas. After entering the ballroom, food started being served xP I love eating can? ehehe... I uploaded the menu on top, go and view it bahx, also hv abalone, I LOVE IT XD Then after all the yum seng here and there, food being served finish, it's time to go home. Took a WHOLE family photo, it was like a lot ppl can? Plus still hv some cannot make it, my family sure is big xD Here's some photo taken with my mum =)

Then soon on our way home, driving through Orchard Road, seeing all the beautiful displays. Miss Adeline Tan's wedding was on 1st December, 1 week after this, but sadly I couldnt attend =/ Anyway, I shall end this post already, let's look forward to the next one =)

Kekiyo Uchida.

Over Seas.

2007-12-14T15:49:00.000+08:00

Ehehehe.. My blog is not exactly dead, just that I went overseas :) Bought PSP Slim =) Hmmm... What more to type? Dunno lah, anyway, who is bebe? The one who tagged my blog O.o I'm doing fine people =) Takecares ~

Kekiyo Uchida.

Soon =)

2007-11-23T03:51:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. 22th November ; Went to school and I found out there's no lesson =X Then I went to Kelvin's house. Was watching Kelvin playing WWE and he's damn violent man =X Then later when carrot came hurry change to Digimon Rumble Arena 2 ^^ Thrashing people like usual =X Only Daren is worthy to be my opponent xP Then later went Hougang Mall, in my school u =/ Carrot bought a Yugioh card for $5, then went to Comics Connection I bought a sword keychain X3 Then went to 4th floor kopitiam eat. I ordered teppanyaki chicken and eel meal =X Eating it for the first time =] Chicken is so so, eel is nice xD Then Daren ordered chicken rice =X Ehehe.. He very nice lor, give me some of his chicken =D (Actually I'm forced to write that =X) LOLS! See no evil, hear no evil ~ Then after Daren finish eating, he.. (I was bribed to cut off this part xP) Then when I was about to finish my meal, Marcus called saying he reached Hougang Mall le =X Then we were playing hide and seek xP Not my idea lah, so don't blame me =X Then finally reunite le, we all went back to Kelvin's house. Not fair lah, they playing the WWE again =/ Forget it I don't want add oil to fire ~ Then I ask Daren to take some pics of me for me =) Then slowly time passes very fast, I was doing Math questions on circle properties for carrot =) The answer in the answer key and mine are different, but carrot say mine is correct =) Went home at 7:30pm, boring as usual =/ 9pm+ I prepared myself Hainanese Chicken Rice xD Put in microwave for 5mins then wait 2mins can le, so convenient. The taste not bad lah, at least it does taste good. Then 11pm+ my mum dunno do what to the com again =/ She say her supervisor taught her what to do, then she do do do in the end also no change.. If the com can be fixed manually I would have fixed it already, I just don't like her doing things to the com as if she know what she's doing. 23th November, midnight. My dad provoked me again. I really hate my family live lah.. It's not just imperfection, but trying to get along well with everyone in this family is like catching mosquito with 1 hand for me.. Some people say we should cherish our family members don't wait until when we lost them then say if only this and that.. I do agree, I want to be a filial son too, to my mum maybe not a problem. But to my dad, I don't know how. I and my dad have an age gap of 30+, this may be the problem. He doesnt understand me at all, and sometimes I do get embarrass and fed up with his actions.. But then, he is still my father, what can I do? Blame it on my ill-fated life that is.. and I have such an irritating sister, she doesnt admit to her wrongdoings, lazy and clumsy,greedy too! I really cannot stand it lah.. I'm crying already leh... I feel so helpless for my life, I simply cannot do anything to change it. Why can't I have a happy family like happy fictional stories, dramas? Why is it that my closest friend have to betray me when I thought we could be best friend for life? Why is it that some people knowing that they wouldnt do it but still make empty promises? Life is so ugly, even me myself am guilty to be alive.. My contributions to the family will always not be commended, but for granted.. I'm just 15 years old, you want me to go to work, then because I don't want you not happy always use this reason to reprimand me. Why can't I be allowed to relax at home? Why must you bring me to be tortured than letting me stay at home doing other things? Do you think you're the only one tired? Yes my studies do sux alot now, but when I did well, you just hope that I would do better next time. You promised to reward me for 1 of my splendid academic performance, but in the end u failed to fulfilled it. So I just let the matter off lah, I don't want say anything liao, because you've since young disappoint me in a lot of ways. You say earning money is difficult, then why didnt you do well for your studies when u were young? What were you doing? Maybe yes u didnt want me to take over your footsteps, but then, I have emotions too, have you ever consider my emotions? My feelings? I always put on a smiling face outside because I don't want people to know I'm very sad deep inside me coz I feel so low having people to pity me for my plight, it's like, crocodile tears. I have once again agreed with some people that I'm a loner. I just don't feel the friendship connection between me and some people, all I felt is that because you happened know me so you just wanted to build up some small relationship and seemingly as if we are friends. I once again hated life to the core, and may isolate myself for some reasons.. Alright I've changed my blog song to this song which I like, it makes me happy..

风筝有风
海豚有海
我存在在我的存在。。。

Kekiyo Uchida.

Congruency? Similarity? O.o

2007-11-22T02:55:00.000+08:00

Ehehe.. Yesterday went to Singapore Expo for the food exhibition thingy again, and oh my.. I can really eat a lot there! Today woke up at 8:40am, wanted to attend morning lesson, but.. Forget it, I'm too tired. Closed my eyes, opened it again, I see the time stating 10am. So I went for the afternoon lesson instead but like always I'm late =/ I simply love to take my time, even tho I could have reached school on time. Today so happy ~ My grammar I got 10/12, but she write down 10/10, hees, everybody also x/10 lah, but actually it's upon 12 =X After that want go Kelvin's house, but he go make IC, then me, Daren, Marcus go Taiwanese house eat first =] So funny lor, we keep calling Kelvin's home number then it's like they're in debt or something xD I love the orange flavoured drink, ehehe. Eat till 4:30pm+ then headed to Kelvin's house. Carrot was already there before we came. He's playing playstation, then I see nobody use the com, so I play audi =D My skills... Maybe have been dragged, but still good? =D Then play till 7pm, soon Carrot went home, then soon we played Digimon Rumble Arena 2 =D That was what I wanted to do at Ah Lai's house =/ Ehehe.. I'm not bragging k, I'm a Digimon expert ;) 99.99% ownage sia (not 100% bcoz I'm humble) LOLS! Hahas, Digimon is not lame k, it's also not childish, it's juz a matter of personal interest.. Then today I witnessed something major in world history, Kelvin had so many lifes where his brother only left 1 mere life, he actually took ages to win and he even died so many times =.= I myself cant stand watching it, to me it's like I'd have settled him in an instant =X Anyway, Digimon rox my life! After that left for home at 8:30pm. Called my father to bring me to buy shampoo and stuffs. Reached home, changed then he fetched me to Hougang Mall. I bought KFC for dinner, as u can see I havent eaten dinner. Then go buy shampoo this all then took bus home. My dad went to fetch my mum. I saw couple photos again, so jealous, how I wish I have a girlfriend too =X Someone to be there for me.. Love me... Oh ya, I'M NOT DESPO OK, JUST EXPRESSING HOW I FEEL DEEP INSIDE MY HEART. Then after midnight, another person says I'm cute again =X And to some people, I don't know why you people like to say I act cute, maybe this is just the way I am? Or else what you expect me to do? Try to change myself juz bcoz I want to avoid comments like that? Nah.. I am like that, and I EXPECT you to accept me for who I am. If you don't like it, don't look at me lah! Alright, now I wanna say something on Singaporeans' language and attitude. Vulgarities like the F word, so nice to say meh? I wouldnt have realised if my gan jie never tell me about this. Conclusion is taken from playing an international game server where people who speak vulgar language MOSTLY comes from Singapore. Yes, very disappointingly. I just don't get it lah, why do people like to use vulgarities, as if you don't say will die like that. I know maybe some of you have made it a habit already, so u don't really meant any harm, but then, why not make it a habit to speak properly? I personally hate people who uses vulgar language lah, even though sometimes I do use them, that's because I'm influenced by people around me =X I'm not putting the blame on those people bcoz I use it lah, it's not like they point a gun at me or anything to force me speak. To people around me ; I don't mind you all using it lah, after all I hear u all say also hear until sianz liao. But then I hope you all can go and think about it lah, what's so nice about vulgarities? It'll only pollute us in the society's naked eye, always using it I also can't stand it.

Kekiyo Uchida.
Written for day 211107.

A picture with hidden meanings...

2007-11-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

I just watched a movie, suddenly I can't help but keep thinking that there are indeed a lot of irritating people in this world. If I were to ask myself whether I'm irritating, I'd say no generally. I'm by nature a very quiet person lor, sometimes I do go a little crazy, which is unusual , unusual to you people because you all don't understand me. To all my friends out there, which 1 of u thinks that you yourself know me very well? I'd be happy if there are people saying they know me well. But then, the cruel fact still remains that nobody know me well, nobody. Well, I may be irritating at times, this is when friends play a part to do something about it. At the same time, I'm absolutely disappointed towards some people lah. The real definition of friend, is it the same as the friends I have? Unfortunately, most ain't. I'm really disappointed lah, don't want talk about it le.. I once thought I have a trustable good friend.. Haiz, it's all in the past now. True friendship nowadays are scarce, something hard to comeby. If you happen to grab it someday, cherish it. Oh ya, for some people's concern, I write my blog post because I feel like writing it, I want to write out my thoughts, my daily life encounters, be it whether there are people viewing my blog or not, I don't care. I heard the S-Pop song sung by JJ Lin, it's entitled "Hurray", quite nice lah =) The MV is nice too. Seen the news saying someone predicted the end of world coming soon. I don't know whether it's true or not, but I sincerely hope it's not =) Found out that someone has the game Digimon Digital Card Battle! Hahas, both of us love digimon games =) It's not lame ok, it's just a matter of personal interest. But then I don't think she lending me bahx, coz her conditions aren't something I can fulfill. I'll just wait for my jie to buy for me from eBay then =/ I wonder when can I start adding the new thing I've been planning into my blog =/ I seriously need another com, unless my com is fixed. Well, look forward to my blog's new look bahx =)

Kekiyo Uchida.

Yet, another birthday =)

2007-11-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

Before I start my LONG post, I wanna wish Fabian happy birthday ! =)

15th November, my birthday =) It was a rainy day. Went to the bus stop, wanted to take taxi but then because I never stretch out my hand then the taxi never stop. Nevermind, it's his loss for not fetching me ~ In fact I saved some money taking bus =) Reached school about 20mins late, but then teacher isnt there O.o Have to do History summary, I hate Combine Humans =( Then teacher say by 12pm need finish summarizing, or else need stay back finish it =/ Then teacher checking whether we're following our timetable. I didnt really do anything new after her previous checking, but then I seemed to escape a disastrous fate xD But then, I managed to escape with the checking, but not with the summary X.x I only wrote a quarter page for my summary, then teacher was asking what were I doing X.x I cant answer her X.x coz I'm chatting all the way, my birthday mah =/ No mood to do work X.x Nevermind, then I sat outside library and wrote the summary. Choon Keat, Fabian, Kelvin and Linus were waiting for me =) After finish writing went to Hougang Point eat KFC, but Linus went off first. Then we were chatting bout anime things. Then when we're leaving, I went to the hp shop and asked how much is N81. It cost $499 with 2 year contract lah, but then, I wanna know the difference between N81 and N81 8GB. I'll ask next time then. 325 bus just came in time, so we rushed to it =) When I reached home, I opened the present Kelvin gave me, it's a Hitsugaya keychain =D I like it a lot =) It suits me, but I haven't put in on my handphone yet. Went to bunk afterwards, trained my HitsugayaKun to Main =) So happy. Received present from panda and eveice jie, hahas. Eveice jie says I'm cute, lols. Then 8+pm on my way home to eat steamboat. Dad's at the mrt station to fetch me home =] Steamboat was definitely nice, then after that sing birthday song ~ Then blow candle, cut the cake ;) This time round my cake is a strawberry ice cream cake O.o Not bad lah, also very nice =) and that's how I spent my birthday, hahas. I'm somehow quite disappointed with some people lah, they don't know when's my birthday. At least got people going overseas they still made an effort to wish me happy birthday before flying, thank you very much =)
16th November, Ice jie say today bringing me out de, but she's too busy for me =( So I stay at home rot lor =/ Ate my ice cream ^^ Mood freshen up.
17th November, woke up @ 1pm+. Went to watch tv, so boring. Then had duck rice with char siew. Quite nice lah, the meat very soft, unlike those like rubber de, bite also cannot bite off. 4pm+ go fetch my mum then go food exhibition. Ate a lot until very very full x.x Shark Fins, Satay, Chicken Meatball, Sausage, Fishball, Grass Jelly, Fish Fillet, Crab, Lobster ~ ~ ~ Then my stomach so big gonna explode le xD Then bought the Smoo ice cream, I think it taste nicer than Moo ice cream leh, don't you think so?
18th November, today Fabian birthday =) Did nothing much at home other than rotting. Started the post with nothing written on it and I was lying on my sofa watching television. Cooked popcorn chicken and fish fillet x3 I love em! My cooking ROX ! Don't be jealous lah =P Now going to have my dinner again =/ Duck rice ~ Wonder if it taste as nice as the one on Saturday.. Oh ya, remember Miss Adeline Tan? She's getting married on December 1st =D Ehehe.. I wanna attend x3 Then wear something very formal which I've longed to wear xP

Kekiyo Uchida.

Counting down 1 year. LOLS.

2007-11-16T00:01:00.000+08:00

I'm fortunate to have spent this day happily. It may be over, but u may not know, it's just the beginning.. =D

Kekiyo Uchida.
Sincerely thanking everyone who contributed to this day.
Counting down 1 year as of November 16th xD

Finally =)

2007-11-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

I thank God that this special day finally made it's arrival. The rest is up to me and my friends now =)

Moments...

2007-11-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

Well.. Right now I'm moments away from that special day =) Today went to bunk, I'm trying to catch up with my deadline, will I be able to make it? Hopefully yes.. Happy birthday to Kenneth the Carrot! hahas. Completed all 20 audition story mode chapters (=^_^=)V Yay ~

A countdown of 15mins before it arrives.

Weeeee xP

2007-11-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

2:30pm :
Yay I have something to post xD See the yellow costumes, I think its kinda gross lor, don't you think so? And poor her only left 78dens xD and yea, today is her birthday. So Happy Birthday =D Hope your dens will rise lah xD

Ok my November 11th post is finalized. I just realise today is also Eric Lam de birthday! Hahas.. Cause he go change his nick to dunno what, then I thought who lai de. So sianz lah, now com sot sot cannot play audition, I only left 3 days deadline leh.. Then my sis everyday bring her fren home, so sianz lor, later I tell her, if she bring her fren home again, I'll lock the inner door don't let her come in.

Even though Heaven have closed all doors, there are still windows left opened in some corners.

But in this situation, there's no way I will let you in =P I'm so hungry now, should I cook? I'm very lazy leh... Order McDonald? Then win $10000! LOLS XD ok, before I end this post, I'll tell u a real life conversation between mother and daughter over the phone.

Daughter : Mummy, can I go home after dinner?
Mother : NO GIRL ! You come home straight away ... ... ... The nagging lasted for 15mins.
Since then, the girl dare not ask her mother to let her stay outside after dinner xD

Errors X.x

2007-11-12T02:25:00.000+08:00

For my previous post, I actually got the days all wrong X.x I wrote wednesday with thursday's date for bbq and it was actually tuesday =.= Anyway, I've edited it. Took me hours leh, then suddenly the com restarted, then I have to re-edit again, zzz... Luckily I remembered what I wrote, finished editing in 20mins time. So touched lah someone remembered that day T.T I didnt even hint him, so happy. He's also buying me present =D Couldn't have been more touched xD I dreamt that I forgotten that day then my friends actually remember it =D Then I was so touched that tears flow down my cheeks T.T It's late now, I'm going to sleep. Wrote a birthday testi for someone le =) Dunno why recently I only feel like sleeping @ 2am+.. Haiz...

Counting down 03 days as of November 12th.

Haiz...

2007-11-11T19:15:00.000+08:00

HitsugayaKun finally lvl 30 le =D 1 level more to Main, with deadline remaining 4 days...

So many things to write.. Let's start from Tuesday bahx. On Tuesday, 06/11/2007, I went to school early in the morning to attend english lesson. But I reached the school about 1 hour later for the lesson, hees... Don't blame me lah, I'm sick leh, yet I still make an effort to attend lessons xD After morning lesson, went to Sakae Sushi eat for the first time, with Ms Roberts for the first time too xD Donovan, Nigell, Wei Guang were also there =) I ordered 1 Main Dish, the Ebi Tempura, and I ate some sushi, including an unagi eel sushi, which I love xD Then Nigell ordered this dunno what sushi which took a long time to make it to the dinning table, hahas. Then after that we headed back to school. We were counting how much each of us have to pay, as you can see from this, it's not teacher's treat, hahas. Then Nigell was like saying this price he need to pay, then later rise again, and rise again, hahas. Total cost of the meal is $68 lah, a quarter of it is the price I need to pay, hahas.. Then went back for afternoon session. Part of the lesson requires me to read a passage. At first when I read I got an A, or A-, because I read too softly =X 2nd time I read I got A+ ^^ Because I read louder than before (=^_^=)V After the afternoon session, I followed Nigell and Donovan to the bus stop where we're taking the bus to Joel's house for bbq. Then Su Xuan was there, later followed by Shu Min and Cheryl. So we toook the 109 bus, then Nigell went home first and will be joining us later. Then after we alight from the bus, Donovan seems to not get the directions right, so I just walk as I pleases ~ Finally reached Joel's house, but he's not at home ._. So we waited outside for sometime, then we see this cute little white dog =D Then Jia Ying and Shu Min are afraid of dogs, hahas. They call Jia Ying the Muslim, cannot touch dog, lols. Then when Joel and frens came, we learnt that the cute little white doggy is actually Joel's dog ! hahas, Shu Min and Jia Ying are definitely gonna have some memorable time ^^ After we went inside Joel's house, we went to the theatre room( I name it the theatre room lah, cause it has a huge tv, with several relaxing chairs.. aiya whatever =.= ) Then watched Scary Movie 4.. My Overall comment for it is.. LAME ! Then after that played few rounds of Mahjong, then go to 2nd level see Joel they all play PS, then after that go down help with bbq thingy, but me and Su Xuan juz sit at the swing thingy. I feel so relaxed sitting there, as tho I was in my childhood times.. Haiz ~ I wanted to sit there forever, but I know it won't be possible =) Anyway, sat long enough, went to help with placing the food onto the sticks for bbqing =) Then Joel was doing for the chicken wings, yucks lor =X He doesnt know how to do it, then he was like holding the chicken until very X.x Nevermind, only I and Su Xuan know, let the others eat the first batch xD Soon the sky turned dark, then the food are getting ready xP Then I also lazy stick the food le, go get a plate and take the noodles with egg. Then take the sausages, fish ball xD I took a lot of chicken satay (=^_^=)V After all is I take and ask them bbq de mah =/ Then pork de I give them lor xD Chicken de is nicer. I also took a photo of Shu Min running from dogs xD Ehehe, too bad can't post the pic, cause cant transfer to com cause my com sot le. Then after that went back to the theatre room to play mahjong xD Then on the tv, got this stupid sound vibrating the whole of the room =.= Time passes really fast lah, then the last round of mahjong, I won xD Then I have to most number of money chips xP Haiz, time to go back home. I walked very fast out to the bus stop xD Then Shu Min they all also walk here le, the stupid bus still havent come =.= Joel asked if I wanted to work by cleaning fans at a school, $6.50/hr, from 14/11 to 17/11 I think. Too bad I'm not free, hahas.. I didnt want to spend that day cleaning fan =X I didnt tell him why can't work lah, I didnt want to remind people, so that people than know.. After that some bus came, some ppl gone. Wait for the stupid bus so long le still havent come, zzZ... Lazy wait le then decided to walk to the next bus stop xD After walking for less than 5 seconds, the bus came. Donovan and the others went back to the bus stop, but I ran to the next bus stop xD Took the bus home, then go home do revisions to serve as evidence that I've been following my timetable. Do until 2+ then go sleep, I drank almost 3/4 of the 1litre HL milk xD
Then the next day, found out that the com sot sot 1.. Dunno what my stupid sis do to it... Can't be bothered le, went to prepare myself for the afternoon session. I wasn't late, but poor teacher was still having lunch, morning session was just dismissed. So I went into the library to find a seat and sit! LOLS.. ok it's lame. Got back comprehension paper, I think I heard teacher saying "Wonderful" =D But then thanks to the noise, I was uncertain =3= I only got the "In Your Own Words" question wrong lah. I was careless lor, change some words only, next time I'll definitely change EVERY SINGLE WORD, with the meaning remaining the same =) Then received 1 comprehension paper, answers all base on how you feel de lah. But I was so hungry, I didnt concentrate doing it but just wrote few words then pass up le. Sorry teacher, it may be a disappointment, but I'm really hungry T.T Maybe that would save u from a pile of nonsenses? xD Then teacher was checking through my revision work, my timetable I only plan for 1 week de, so I told her I'll just plan week by week. Then teacher ask me how am I going to make sure I can finish all the chapters before school holiday starts. So I told her I'll calculate the total amount of chapters in total then divided by the numbers of days left available. Then later she told some of my other classmates about my style of planning the timetable. Of course it's an honour, but... X.x ... After that lesson over le went Hougang Point buy Popcorn Chicken, after that wanted to take taxi, but taxi stand got people le, so went to take bus instead. Saw Shu Zhuang in the bus, hahas. Reached home at around 3:40pm+. Saw my sis sleeping, of coz sleeping lah, spoil the com still go touch it for what. I then went to lie on my bed until 4pm, which is when I'm meeting Choon Keat and friends, sms them telling them I just reached home, then went to bath. Hees =X But I wasn't the latest to meet them lor, it was Beng Hong! Ehehehe... Went to buy the movie tickets for "The Game Plan". Then take escalator level by level from 7th floor to B2 ._. Then laze at pizza hut, indecisive about eating or not. So I go bunk lor, better than wasting time. It's only 5pm+, and movie starts at 6:45pm. Then I saw them coming to bunk, but they seem to have a hard time finding me, hahas =P Then later they dunno go where lah, I play till 6:30+ Go buy FOOD : Hunkytori ! Chicken Thigh with teriyaki sauce xD. Then I go 7th floor buy large size drink and fish cod. Saw some juniors, but I didnt go look at them busy answering phone. Then go watch "The Game Plan". Told BH I saw Yi Sin, he dun believe me woh, say I see wrongly =.= He's just few mere metres away from me only! After watching the movie, went toilet, saw Yi Sin again and I went to tell BH again, but he didnt see him =.= Then we lazed at Pizza Hut. Undecisive, dunno want eat or dun wan. So in the end made a reservation under Jason. Then BH FINALLY saw Yi Sin. He came back from Taiwan the day before. See lah me perfect eyesight leh, how can see things wrongly =X Went Carrefour look at electronics, after that they decided to go home, coz Pizza Hut very long. Then I went to bunk play until 11+, after that go home watch tv until 2+am then went to sleep.
Thursday and Friday spent my day mostly in PC Bunk, hahas. Thursday went with Jasmine Toh and friends, then she left early. I play until it close woh. Originally was suppose to be 11:30pm de lor, then dunno why they 10:30pm jiu close le, I still left 3k to level. Then next day finally level 30 x3 Then play till 9+ went Hougang Mall takeaway KFC home =)

Life is like taking a train, people try to catch the right one and let it take them to the place they should be. And when it's time to get off, they'll know. So, have you catch the right train?

The only ss I have =X

Counting down 04 days as of November 11th.
Edited @ 2:13am, as of November 12th.
Edited @ 12noon, as of November 12th.
Final Edit @ 2am, as of November 15th.

僕の「静の子」　=D

2007-11-06T02:05:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my dear daddy pig and mummy pig =D Now left er zi pig de birthday le x3 Recently so happy lor, see what teacher wrote for me =D

Dear Yao Ming, I have plenty of hope in you! And yes I adore you very much as you are so sweet-natured. You definitely need to work hard, Afterall, it's only for a short time and it's only for your future. Stay focused and follow the time-table closely and you will be successful!

Don't ask me which teacher lah, it's very obvious ^^ It's very late now, I just wanna write this.

Fighting and sharing are special things that only those who've crossed the borderline can have.
So, you can make such a face, too? But I don't want to be just watching it.
So we run through a triangular maze.
Look towards me. I will tell you how I really feel.
A phony kindness will only hurt the other person more.
I want to be by you, so tell me. Rather than pain I don't understand,
I prefer to understand everything and share the time together...

Counting down 09 days as of November 6th.

A distant, and transient dream...

2007-11-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

What I've dreamt... Looking at the pedicure nails, I thought of my lost loved one... I heard her saying to me, "should we start things over afresh".. Without hesitation, I refused. I ran off in panic, only then I realised, she doesnt belong here anymore, she was long ago dead. Then this uncle was introducing me about this game console =.= Then I heard someone badmouthing me indirectly, I knew it was her... But how? Why? Wasn't she long ago dead? Why do I still hear her voice? And so I ran aimlessly, soon I came into a shopping center. There was nobody else, and then I saw her. As I went after her, I came into an arcade where suddenly somebody covered my mouth and asked me to keep quiet. Then I heard her voice, "Let him out, wherever u're hiding him". As she moved to the very last corner, 1 guy ambushed her but failed and she wanted to attack the guy at the other side. With guns pointing at each other, she came to the guy and asked him, why arent u shooting me? The guy didnt say anything, but knocked off her gun, and handcuffed her. I was handcuffed too. She told the officer "I was merely playing a fake gun, like that also catch meh?" Only then I realised, they're from the CID. The next day, I heard that she disappeared anoymously. Then I was summoned by Sir with the others in a white police uniform. Am I a police...? Amazingly I was still handcuffed, then Sir came to unlock my handcuff. He told me, everything is back to normal. Then a female comrade beside me said "She was merely just playing with a toy gun, u didnt have to arrest her right?" Once again, I know it was her. Everything was inexplicable, then Sir put on a flower necklace on her, and we were dismissed. As I look at her again, the necklace disappeared. She then self-introduce herself to me, I was puzzled that she sound so different from just now. I see... She have left already...

The End.

小病是福 xD

2007-11-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Today went back to school @ 1. I was actually late lah, but then teacher not here yet xP Was chased by a cat =.= With me being sick, didnt really ran very fast lah, but managed to disappear. Anyway, I was glad to find people asking me to takecare and stuffs. Thank you for ur concerns =D Especially Miss Roberts xD Sadly I was still attacked by this cat =.= Anyway, went into the library and did timetable planning. OH MY GOD LAH, I don't want study can X.x that day also need come to school, it'll be sad if no one remembers that day =( Miss Roberts actually wanted me to go home, because I didnt looked well. For the first time I think, I actually looked pale =X Usually I'll recover from my illness automatically 1 lor, dunno why this time round de so persistent. Took the thick Diary, quite nice lah =D and the small little journal book.. Brought back most of the stuffs in my locker, hopefully I didnt bring them home just to occupy space, thank you Kelvin for helping me carry home =D Alright, the moment I reach home I see my sis using the com. Nothing weird =/ Told her to let me use 30mins later, then I went to bed and eventually fell asleep. Dunno why I keep falling asleep so easily nowadays. Then after that wake up eat dinner, 8pm use the com. So bored lor, I dun wan play games, but eventually still went into audi. Then I go into this funny Gay Pro room, hahas, stay in there for v long. Was in the observing slot, didnt want to play, not in gd form =/ I cant do level 10 and 11 T.T Then suddenly we were playing npc Eric and those v noob de =.= I actually miss Eric de fm !!! that was my first match bah, lols. After that okok le. We recreate the rm 2 times, 3rd room I recreate de, hahas. then everybody gtg le =/ Today in audi is sunny day =D Nothing there to spoil my mood. Oh ya not forgetting --MR--BeNDaN the stripper, hees (=^_^=)V Yesterday midnight so happy, Bought my new sets of clothes, thx to GodServed, kierena, MeCooL and eletron =) Super pro team, actually won Team npc for Expert Chreo and Sync 8 xD

Be jealous =P

Counting down 14days as of November 1st...

Fate.

2007-10-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

I'm sick recently T.T Sore throat, cough, running nose, and frequent headache =( Haiz.. Morning cough out a lot of flams, hopefully I'm recovering. My 2nd aunt's daughter is marrying already =D My 2nd aunt asked me to go help open the wedding car door then can get 1 ang pao xD Wouldnt I be in the central of attention xD Maybe not =X Today play audition until so pek chek @@ I'm definitely going to buy a new com, it's just that I dunno when to ask my dad, I told my mum she's like dun wan buy liddat. So cheap lor, why cant she just trust me, I know what I'm doing, it's juz mere few hundreds, if I were to be scammed, I can just go out and find job and earn it back in no time. I believe I am wise enuff to know what I'm doing.. Anyway, back to audition. Some noobs out there are really driving me crazy @@ Say can 8k npc then say lag. Lag still play for what, FK OFF LAH ! At least some people who arent that noob thinks they're noob and didnt want to bring others down by going to obs or leave the rm. Then u all the REAL NOOBS cannot auto a bit ar? Level wrong jiu also auto a bit leave room lah, u w8 for ppl kik ar? Then when ppl kik u then u not happy, also ur fault what, dun wan play waste ppl's time for what? Let other people come in lah. If you're 1 of the NOOBS I'm referring to and not happy with what I'm saying, come play with me lah, I show u what is considered not noob, and u better go take a look in the mirror and see clearly how shameless a noob u are giving people who are not pro a bad reputation. Next time I see this kind of shameless noob, I'll take a ss and post and insult u in all ways I will. Watch out to those kind out there, I'm a saddist and I'm merciless. Get your fking char out of reach from me and don't expect to give me attitude coz I won't take it. Anyway I wont let my mood get affected coz there are even happier things I should be happy about =D Todos ~

Counting down 17days as of October 29th.
An anoymous fear ambushes...

Hungry X.x

2007-10-29T12:21:00.000+08:00

omg lah.. I'm smelling things X.x I think I'm too hungry le, go cook now, hees =D

The past and the future.

2007-10-27T14:15:00.000+08:00

Took hours to write this post yesterday then continued today, lols. Today is Jasmine mummy de birthday =D Happy birthday ~ Soon there will be a lot of birthdays as well X.x Anyway, READ MY SPECIAL POST! XD

Today I'm writing a special post on my dear audi char. He is HitsugayaKun. Currently level 29, single, guildless. He have been with me for nearly 1 year. We've gone through many beautiful sunshines and also horrible rainy days, he is like my life, my everything. Remembering the memorable days, from an ignorant stiffy, I'm now a Back Up dancer on the stairs towards a Main dancer. Let's look back into the past...

When I was still a noob.. hahas...

The fastest bpm cfm I can do tt time xD

My first full combo xD

First time doing 188bpm cfm (=^_^=)

Passion for beat up xD

My favourite song x3

Highest score I could attain xD

First time 8k npcing xP Look my score's higher than the npc !

License for rank Amateur x.x

Finally succeeded on the 2nd try xD

Wah pro seh X.x

Didnt knew I was so good at this song, but I certainly sux @ this song now, cant perf !!! Gave me a lot of probs for my lvl 23, 25, and 26 license X.X

First 500k for 188bpm db4 mode xD

Near 1m xP

Lessest miss for Magic World db4 X.x

Another bunch of pros X.x

Sob no fm x10 T.T

Beat up pro xP

LOOK! 1 person bboi xD

Lucky times..

Advancing skills..

My first attended wedding party =)

1 vs 1 / b vs g night mode xD

I won xD

My first 185bpm cfm perfect ^^

Wow full combo for Party Party xD

Memorable license x3

Happy times, coincidental same move in freestyle xD I wan cover my face too =3

She may have the head but I have the tail xD

Too pro le ppl run liao.. LOLS!

Practising jas' license. It was easy to me =D

Finally a Back Up dancer. My first received mega T.T BYE BYE TO EURO 2005 =D

My first time play Party Party NPC X.x

1st Party Party 1m xD

So far this score the highest I can get =/

Nice lah xP

Look at their scores @.@

A badly thrashed NPC with me the mastermind xD

Wah 1 vs 2 DB8, first time do 185bpm 8k fm xD

YAY~ I won ^^

Free $$$ xD I know I lousy lah, we playing during midnight leh, bo form + bo energy + cannot press too loud ltr parents wake up X.x

Wah combo x11 leh

1k exp X.x

Nice 185bpm cfm =D

Lucky xD

OMG! JAS WENT HAYWIRE XD

Finally a 500k for beat up Mov Mov

Funny times.. She was talking about the phobia she had for the song Euro 2005, because there was a big crowd looking at her doing the license, but then she wrote crowd as crows xD Since then I've appointed her the Crow Goddess xD and have been mocking at her xD

A master and a main X.x

x6 fm xD

-EVO-Sn0wy, master of bad, and her daughter belin xD

Go Go license ^^ lvl 27, lvl 28, lvl 29. All 1 hit ko, easy for me xP

Recent craziest moves xP
4 key Level 6/7?

I remember it shld be 2222282 =.=

4key Finish Move

The 1st fm, 444664466 =.=

4k Crazy Finish Move

44446224882

44444464826

8k Crazy Finish Move

77771773228

That's all for my screenshots. I want thx panda especially for helping me in my leveling, as well as others who helped as well. Wondering if I can make it to Main..

Counting down 19days as of October 27th.
and blissful day...

Boring

2007-10-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

Finally, tomorrow is the last day of school. Taking back the lousy report book =/ So bored lor, I was stone-ing on my sofa with my com on watching tv ~.~ Then originally got a lot things to write, now dunno want write what @@ Sad lah, everyday have headache, panadol also eat finish le T.T Sianz leh expert chnl dun hv magic world, dun hv db8, pros all train sai ar? zzZ... Maybe I'll be quitting when I reach Main? xD

Crazy fms - I mean CRAZY

I'm leveling up =) Then soon I'll reach the stairs of a main.. Recently didnt really chiong, due to several reasons. Wanted to buy a new com, it's 2nd hand, but then the things are all new? Dunno how to say lah xD 1GB RAM, 80GB hard disk, 2.9 processor at price of $380. Also includes dvd drive this all. I told the guy to make it 2GB RAM, 160GB hard disk ( Guo Wei say 80GB not enough =.= ), then I told him to keep the total price below $500 xD Then I still want 512MB Graphic Card, got a lot types lah, cheapest also $100+, X.x I have limited $$$ leh T.T Somemore I still want buy the flat screen monitor, and I still have other plans X.X There will be a path for me to walk eventually, so I'll just gather infos first =) Tomorrow is the official last day in sec 3 le =( How I wish... Impossible. I shall w8 for my next special post ^^

Counting down 22 days as of October 24th.
Which is for a peculiar...

Changes undergoing...

2007-10-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya xD Lols. This is my 100th post xD Weeee, let's make it a long and memorable one. Monday woke up quite early, wanted to go bunk but then I was finding a video converter for like 3 hours? Wtf lah.. My precious last day of break was wasted on the converter X.x Reached bunk @ 3pm+ full house, the panda didnt help me write my name first, lazy lah she =/ Then wait until 4pm got come le =) Played a lot of beat up, exp gaining like siao xD But still little =.= Adelene suddenly come boo me O.o I thought it was Shery, hahas. Then the stupid com I'm using was causing me stupid lags, for my 2nd game there that com actually lagged severely until the sound quality become like shyt liddat, then re login audition lor. Changed place with panda xD But still a little lag, but much better than the previous one. Panda is leaving @ 6:30pm, leaving me alone @ bunk =( Asked Shery to come but she didnt in the end =/ Then suddenly someone knocked my head =.= It was Adelene O.o She never say anything so I continued playing lor. Play until 8+ then going home le. I got a piece of brownie from the bunk staff xD Panda didnt get it, so sad xD I was hungry then, after I walked out of bunk, I hurried ad stuffed it into my mouth xD As if someone were to snatched it away X3 Then went to takeaway KFC, Shery was eating @ Sakae Sushi <3 bf ="X">SHOCKED to see myself with a failing grade for english and chinese comprehension, how could I have done so badly, I've had high expectations for them T.T Regarding other subjects, I'm speechless =X Jasmine actually asked me to buy 100k Acash for her xD Siao one X.X Go home slack again, saw ppl do 185bpm 8k cfm ! Nice lor xD I like the turn and turn and turn one, lols.
17th of october, I deliberately don't bring my pe shirt and skip pe xD Then Mr Lam still continue conducting lesson =/ But certainly our class need all the time we have, our A math are horrible ! Miss Roberts told us that currently there are 5 to-be-retained students in our class. Altho I do hv some names, but what for I say other people, it's not like I'm in anyway better =( Miss Roberts told me I'm not one of the retainees, it actually soothes me psychologically, but naturally I couldn't help thinking vice versa... However, this all didnt really matters to me apparently, I've learnt to think from the bright side, as I wanted to do so, so that my life is happier =) Retain doesnt mark the end of everything, it's the O level result that counts, who cares if u retain for 10 years, even tho it may be a little exaggerating =X So everybody let's cheer up =)
18th October, I never go school. Went somewhere else, who knows I actually overslept. But it doesnt matter anyway. After that went to Plaza Sing. Wanted to buy those v nice and ex chocolates for SuXuan, but then they are out of stock =( Went walk around in Plaza Sing, I discovered, it was different from the old Plaza Sing I knew. It has changed for the better. Then I saw this japanese mini food shop Hunkytori, they have those chicken teriyaki sticks xD So nice ~ Then I go Carrefour walk walk ~ So boring =( I want drink Breezer T.T After that buy few more sticks bring to pc bunk eat xD I from 12+ play until 7 xD Leveled up again then do license 1 hit ko xD Helped Panda do her lvl 34 license, also 1 hit ko, dunno why she cant do =X Then I was chaining 1 song, x1 x2 x3, then x4 de move i type wrong 1 key then hurry retype then x4 xD Got one guy look at me then give me the face like "Like that also can?!" xP Then do 1 more x5, end of story. LOLS. Ok, after bunking, I went to takeaway the Hunkytori with bento(rice) and bring home eat. I managed to promote to next year 4E3 =D Unfortunately some didnt make it =( It was really wasted that I spent my sec 3 like this, results are sucking the hell out of me. Next year.. or next month.. I'd have to buck up on my studies, so that I'll have a better standing in the future's competitive society. Getting a mere passing grade is not bring u anywhere, so I thought I'd aim A1 for english, chinese, e maths, poa. You can laugh all you want, but I'm serious to getting A1s for these. Since I am able to understand the topics, why not get a good grade out of it? What I'm most inconfident of is combined humans. Maybe getting a B4 for it is enuff =X Combine sci and A math, B3 and above? xD Yea it's easy saying what to do and excuting it will be a problem. I seriously can do it, but then, I'll really need my friends to study with me together, I need good influences to produce good studying habits. I don't mind becoming a nerd for now =X I want what's best for me. Anyway, this song is dedicated to all our 3E3 fellow mates. Enjoy =)

Emo times...

EH? NO! NOT MY PAPER! My marks are much more higher =)

The following pictures below are taken by Poh Wei Jie xD

New matrix style xD

Jason is so cute xD

Look who's back?!

The following subsequent pics are taken by me =D

He's lonely =(

Not anymore bcoz he has Ah Lai =D
...

Do not forget..
Never forget...
We're from 3E3 '2007.

Mission "100th Post" completed.
Further revise finalized.
Counting down 27 days as of October 19th.
A simple request...

Not again =/

2007-10-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

Today's the last day of break after exam =( Tomorrow need go back to school again.. But it's ok ^^ Tomorrow got 3 periods of english xD I wanna know how I did for SA2 too.. No matter how lousy I've performed, I'm all ready to face it =) Later going pc bunk, I always play until v lan there one lor X.x Then my com now got severe lag and damn blue screen, make it so hard for me to play #%^#$^@ Plus my headache is reacting again X.X May all things turn well today =) Changed blogskin, blog song, ready to prepare for my next post ^^ See ya ~

Counting down 1 month <3
Like no other kids...

Friday the emo night.

2007-10-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast that today is a friday already. My day started off with me brushing my teeth and then Ms Roberts smsed and asked me to buy bubble tea O.o She thought I was her sec 4 student xD So bored there's nth interesting to do. Watched the 2nd episode of Shakugan no Shana, things are starting to get wild and I'm already addicted to it xD Temptation unresisted ~ Wanted to play maple, but I worried I'll get addicted to it again =( I don't want to waste real cash on game stuffs anymore.. Audition char finally leveled up, license was damn easy, 1 hit ko =) What's wrong with you when people open the rm for a purpose and u didnt want to oblige it. Nobody asked u to come what, if u can't help then go away lah, it's not like anyone is FORCING you to do something, you have the rights to choose what, unless u're dim-witted or something. I HATE strangers. Especially unfriendly ones. Why can't anyone juz accept the damn invitation when u know u'll be invited. Did you think it was fun rejecting, you don't want come in jiu suak lah, dun come in and make a big mess, that's making u a retard. FK OFF IF U'RE JUST A DAMN NOOBY SAYING OTHERS NOOB, GO AND TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND LOOK AT THE TRUE DEFINITION OF NOOB.

新しい希望

2007-10-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ! THIS MOMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR !!! WEEEEEEE.. EXAM'S OVER !!! Sadly I don't think I can pass A math, but then I'm happy enough to know that I've made improvement =) Went to find teachers for SA2 marks. My E maths paper 1 get 24/50 =X But then add paper 2 sure pass le lah xD Miss Robert told me this, she wont let anyone of our class retain next year, hearing this gave me some huge amount of sense of assurance =) For now, let's just make FULL use of this break ^^

最後の希望

2007-10-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

Finally tomorrow's the last paper, A Maths. 2 hours paper, 0815hrs-1015hrs. I'm having headache which last for days already.. Save me T.T

明日は最終的にテスト最後の日である,高レベル数学。ペーパー2時間の, ０８１５時-１０１５時。私は頭痛を有している何日も既に持続させる。。。私を救いなさい T.T

If there's no sufferings, there's no compassion.

2007-10-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

October 5th was my sis birthday, then yesterday was ck's birthday, today's Jazreel birthday, hahas. On my sister's birthday, went to swensens for dinner. I ordered baked fish rice, as it'll give me memories of having my meal on the plane =D Upon serving, the guy told me it was hot. Stupid me didnt get the full meaning of it, I went to lift the glass bowl and got my hand scorched X.x I thought it was the food itself which is hot, actually it was the whole thing =/ Then at night had ice cream cake xD Weeeee ~ Then 6th October, first woke up at 8am, then I sleep until 12+ then wake up X.x Decided to go out to celebrate ck's birthday, then made rearrangements to others things, so ma fan =( Then went out @ 1+ We went to Marina Square order movie ticket to watch the movie "Underdog", hahas. We went to eat McDonald for lunch, and then my stupid mouth ulcer(dunno how to spell lahs) was like so pain whenever the food touches it, @#%#%^$@ Then after that walk around, then go fetch Kah Jun. Then we go buy food watcj movie le. Regretted buying Nachos, I don't like it, Lays taste even better than it. After movie, Kenneth went home. The rest of us went anyhow walk walk like usual lor, then we went to Millenium Walk, then Suntec City. I saw Kuishin-Bo japanese buffet restaurant, it actually attracted me into going there for dinner X.x I'll ask my jie bring me there next time =D Went to witness the water fountain performance, quite nice lah, something I don't see everyday =) After that went to PS, then I go PC Bunk play audition =) Then the rest go home le I still there playing. Lose quite a lot of times =( Dunno why go bunk always like that 1. Then going home tt time, answered my father's call, #@#$^$#^@#%@ Dun wanna talk about it, he's a disappointment. Today 9am wake up, lazy bath. Brush my teeth then prepare to go tuition. Tuition so funny lor, hahas. Then go home my lunch is like shit. Then I watched this movie "A Walk To Remember", so nice lor, it's so touching, people inside there were so terrible, I'm lucky that our school is better than theirs. If you're interested in watching it you can go Veoh and watch it. I'll be changing my blog song to one of the songs inside =)
Love is always patient and kind
It is never jealous
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish
It does not take offense and is not resentful
I did not need a reason to be angry with god... If I were to love you, I'll love you for who you are, and not what I want you to be. Love has no fixed definitions. Just because u think that doing those things are lame then u're just a child. What's wrong with a couple doing things that a couple should do? Fine if you think it's funny, keep the unnecessary comments to yourself and nobody will say you're mute. It is really a pity that some regretted breaking up and then hoping to turn things back the way it used to be again. In some situations it's possible, some ain't. I'm tired of relationship thingy too. I'm not good at playing love games, I don't know what you're thinking, I don't want to misunderstood. Is it always fixed that guys should take the initiative? I don't mind taking the initiative, you just act as though you didnt care, didnt feel.. didnt FEEL anything for me... 3 more papers to go, 2 more days left, 1 major result awaits... I hope I can do well for Chemistry, it can be easy... I've been disappointed numerous time.. I could trust no one... I've felt lonely all this while, I want more friends, friends who is always there for me, friends who reply whenever I call... I know there are some good friends around me, I appreciate the times we've been through together, thank you very much.. Thank you Eva mummy pig for being there for me at times, you are just like my real mother, I felt comforting when u always console me. Also thank you ice jie for being my jie and bring me out as though I was your real brother. Others plz don't feel prejudiced because I didnt mention u, please continue to be there for me ... I've always had this belief.. But I don't know if it's really true or not.. I'll never abandon this blog which have always been with me.. I'd rather let it rot than let it dead.. Thank you for always being there for me too, also thank you computer for your beneficial functions.. When I cross the road, there's always a chance I might be knock down by a car.. Especially during primary one, if I had been slower a second, I'd have been hit by the car. Then at home I have such a useless father, giving me such a bad impression of home. I hated going home, I didnt want to see this stupid idiot, my mum should have divorced him, I feel so ashame to have this father, going out with him I feel like covering my face with a mask. Even my mum don't like him too, he's crazy, he dunno how to be a father, he's the world worst father of all, I hate him, hate him TO THE CORE. I really don't mind if god were to bring him away, I have nothing more to lose anymore, my life is as bad as hell. I really hate my life, but life is fragile, life is precious, taking your own life is a sin, a stupid thing people say. I don't know what to do, what path to take, and what reason to live... I wonder where do people go when they die? Heaven? Hell? Only this 2 places? If I can choose, I'd rather go into the world of anime, which I've longed to be.. I merely wanted a happy life, why can't you all give me? Why are there still some fuckers out there contributing to the darkness in my life.. Why must u act in this way which make u a lowdown, a failure. There is definitely retribution in this world, I've witnessed it. It's so hard to isolate myself when there are still good friends around me. I'm unlike normal human, I don't know what to do to make myself normal, make myself someone who people likes, and not people who despise me. I have to admit I've been a rascal, an idiot. God please show me the light.. I just wanted a happy life, is that something so unachievable? Fuck off lowdowns who are laughing at my despair. I still have a long journey ahead, and if things really continue this way, I'm afraid I may have a mental breakdown.. I admit I'm a child, I'm immature, will you take me and guide me through my life? Sometimes my friends are like my family, they give me a kind of feeling which I really like it, but then that feeling seems to have been vanishing gradually... I want my sense of belonging.. I want my happiness in life...

Pictures taken October 06th 2007.

Monsoon =(

2007-10-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

Exam period is boring.. My physics paper, wondering if I can pass.. POA also... Things that were tested, I read it before the test le, but then when it came out I actually didn't know how to do.. Haiz... Things are not the way it used to be le.. Miss Roberts is always so kind to give us extra time, but then we may be too dependent on her extra time, that wouldnt be good =X No matter what turns out to be, the Earth still revolves around the Sun anyway. Played Korean Audition, was so laggy.. Did 3 188bpm cfm =D So happy.. I have had to make a decision.. Out of these choices, I can only choose one.. I can run away from it, but I can never hide from it...

Presenting you Shakugan no Shana Second OP

and ED

If slow then blame your computer lousy ! =P
<3 Shakugan no Shana 2 =)

Exams the root of all evil xD

2007-10-04T14:50:00.000+08:00

2 days have passed and they were awful =/ For my chinese paper, the compre paper was like so hard that it was outside my expectation X.X ok, fine, forget it. Then My letter writing write until so nice, I spent about an hour doing? Was dilly dallying mah.. Then compo wan write about kiasu 1, but then changed my mind and had 15mins for my 50marks compo X.X I really have no sense of urgency, bodoh me.. Then time is up already, Miss Roberts is collecting the paper T.T Thanks godness she let me do first, she gave me really lot of extra time, and I finally finished my compo, 50 marks leh, it was all in a mess. What can u expect from a 15mins+ compo without planning thoroughly, hope I pass lor, I'm confident overall chinese wont fail de =) Then today Math paper 2 was quite ez lah, drew the graph wrongly, haiz.. Hope paper 1 and 2 add up can get at least C5? Like that I happy le lah.. Then History paper O.O I was sleeping !!! Yea, not that I cant help it, is juz that I dunno how to do, coz I didnt study history. Social Studies is much easier =) I was sleeping again and again, yet I finished the paper, Gary was racking his brain out thinking how to do whithout sleeping and he didnt finish Essay part B =.= 13 marks fly ~ Once again I wanna say.. Miss Roberts ROX !!! Her appearance is just like Goddess helping me out of crisis ! Had she appear earlier, I could have been the class' model student, LOLS ! After History paper went Hougang Point eat KFC, 4pc meal xD Seriously I was so hungry today, my stomach was groaning since E Math paper ended X.x I saw Miss Roberts there =D Then me and Jason were waving to her xD After that took bus with Beng Hong and Kah Jun home =) and then do what? Study lor =( Sometimes, making decisions is hard...

Illusion..

2007-10-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

Wah SA2 started le woh, and I've been studying really hard for it ^^ Miracle woh. Got back my english speech homework, and wow, I got 26/30 =D 86.67% leh, I'm so proud of myself lor, I didnt know I can score so well for english, Miss Roberts showed me the light =D Hopefully she is our teacher next year, or rather she is MY teacher next year =) E Math paper today was like so difficult, I know how to do circles =D Except for that radian circle, zzz... If I answer all my questions correctly, I can still get roughly 30 marks bah, hopefully those I did are correct =) Then Social Studies paper was ok? I only memorise the whole of chapter 4, then chapter 6 is read and forget one. the Sri Lanka and Ireland thingy only took me about 10mins to memorise? Then Mr Lai was testing me, making me remember =D So since chapter 4 was the main chapter of the SA2, as the source based and essay question are both related to chapter 4, I know how to answer the question lor, whether I can pass or not depend on whether they format I answer is correct or not lor. Yesterday study math until 10pm+ outside, honoured? XP Well sometimes I really cant figure out what human is like =( Sometimes they're like this and sometimes they're like that. Sometimes they're like the world baddest people and sometimes they're like world kindest people. I am a human, but then I doubt it's reliability. Maybe I'm at the wrong place, wrong time, wrong generation, I seemed to search for who I really am. Yes, I seemed to have searched my true self, but then I fear people around wouldnt accept me for who I am. I am me. I am not something fixed u think I am. I have emotional times as well, a person's growth and development is really dependent on it's community and environment. Everyone should respect each other because we're all equal, it's ok to hate some people, but then there's a limit to everything. We are all borned and to self-cultivate ourself is part of what we do in life. Sometimes when u reprimand others, you should take a look of yourself in the mirror. Are you self-cultivated enough to reprimand others, do u have the rights or not, are u doing something right? Most people have lousy attitudes, they don't care what's right and wrong, they do it for the sake of doing. Shameless is one of the words used to describe those people. These are what I feel about life, I'm not offending anyone in particular, but just my mere conclusions. If u're offended, then you should know why, and not blame on what I've written. To realise ur own mistake and repent is a kind of virtue. Humans are all equal, it's human themselves whom level each other. I decided to quit mac le, I'm tired. Preparing for Sec 3 EOY is tiring enough already, I dont want a burden stacked on top of me, I prefer to be freed from everything. Mabe u think I'm irresponsible, worked for less than a month then quit. No matter what anyone say, my resolve is firm. I'd rather quit and then concentrate on my studies than trying to find excuses to push my schedules around like I did. I'm not meant for working, studying is what I should label as priority now. I simply cannot cope when mixing studies and work together, NO. I don't have to explain to all of you, there's no need to. I'm accountable to myself, that's enough. Friends around me shld support me, and not creating contradictions thus weakening friendship ties. Nowadays I've been linking things together despite whether they are related or not X.x Sometimes I really misunderstood some things, and try to find ways to resolve it. Sometimes, it's better to clear the misunderstading with the person. Don't be like me, always think very far when the answer is just crystal clear =/

Here are some requested photographies taken by me on 22/09 =)

That's all for now, until next time then =)

So tired..

2007-09-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

Monday went out with jie =) Went to AMK Hub meet her, then walk around the new shops, didnt really encounter any nice clothes =X Went to Ichiban Sushi for Lunch, I MISS THE UNAGI EEL AND TEMPURA PRAWN ! XD Havent been there for a year le xP After that take mrt go Bugis then went to the shop that closed that time when I saw nice clothes, so happy jie bought for me ! Then later went to the stationary shop buy pen and stuffs etc etc xP The schedule books there are sooo nice, all imported from Japan, and jie said they'll run out soon xP Then went to the book shop, full of books =X Then was reading those feng shui thingy, dun hv monkey zodiac 1 ! Animal discrimination ! xP Then after that go Marina Sqaure, walk so long then finally decided to buy the big pencil case xD Then after that jie need go home le, go secret recipe takeaway the "Fresh Catch of the Day with Lobster Sauce", it's actually fish lah xP Today Miss Robert said things so touching, probably something that not most of my teachers will do, she's a very good teacher, and I really hope she can continue teaching us next year.. and I also hope I wont be demoted lah, hope I can get last minute revision with teachers, asking em to teach me 1 to 1, better than a bunch of students, that'll snatch my motivation away. I'm glad Miss Robert wanted to help to improve our class' result, despite the fact that our class is horrible to some teachers =/ All I can do now is try my best to study..

...

2007-09-10T22:07:00.001+08:00

Hoho... Saturday 1st day reporting for work =) 5-11 xD Things are going well tho, even tho it's kind of tiring xP I'm still not used to opening my mouth =/ I am shy lah xD Saturday met a lot new frens? hmmm.. It's really very bored doing lobby when people are like camping there =X Then I don't have trays to keep, but I can wipe the glasses, but then I can't keep doing that right =/ Clearing the trays is fun, washing it is more fun xD But then it'd be better if I'm doing lobby alone, then I can have all the fun xD Later at the night, there's a bunch of weird guys O.o Asking me fill 1 litre of water, then wheneve I walk pass they'll say "Good job Yao Ming" =.= !!! Then when going home, the whole bunch shouted "Bye bye Yao Ming" X.X I'm so stunned, what would anyone else who hear it think? xP Then took bus with Zheng Wei? Dunno his name =/ But I didnt alight with him, lazy =P Then go home le still got Shark Fin eat xD I slowly eat until 1+ then go sleep, but then forgotten next day morning got E Math tuition @@ Spoil my hibernation-like sleep X.X !!! Then E-Math tuition lasted for about 3 hours x.x After that went home audi ^^ Then suddenly someone call me telling me there's work that day.. Sianz T.T I thought I can spend last day of school holiday playing audition T.T So I tell them I'll be going to work @ 6pm to 8pm =D Then after work I want takeaway mac go home eat dinner, but then they dun allow, dunno why =/ Then I have to swallow everything, and I was actually taking my time X.X !!! Then after that check my schedule and rush home xP Reached home @ about 9? Then go bath, after that had dunno what fish for dinner, omg lah X.x Went to bed @ 12+, then was playing my handphone game until 1am+ Then finally I slept xD Finally school reopened, so sianz. I spent the lessons before English playing my handphone game and smsing, then english lesson finally I take out my pencil box =X I love english lesson!!! Because I have a good english teacher =D Then assembly the Vice Principal talk so much crap, somemore talk so slowly, I'M REALLY VERY HUNGRY LEH !!! Then today skipped my A Math tuition =X lalalala ~ Sianz lah =( I'M SOOOOOOOO JEALOUS OF SO MANY THINGS !!! Why couldnt I have the best of all =( Should I take action or just wait patiently? SA2 is juz a few weeks away, hope I can do well for it...

Hmmm..

2007-09-07T08:45:00.000+08:00

Alright, before I start blogging, telling all JJ Lin fans that he's going to the discovery center today. If you wanna meet him in person, then this is ur lucky chance ^^

Update : He's going there @ 12noon =D

Yesterday went to the food exhibition, then found out that there's a game exhibition there too ^^ So went there to see see xP Then was playing audition there until 6pm when they closes =X Then went to the food exhibition xD Ate A LOT A LOT of things xD Oh ya I managed to pass my license 2 days ago xD So happy. Now I was battleon-ing all the way for the Groggle rare item quest, finally got my reward, but then they're like, not so good =X

"Shopping"

2007-09-04T10:25:00.000+08:00

Wow, yesterday was sure a long day! Went out with ice jie xD Met jie at about 4pm @ Bugis, then went to had lunch @ fish & co xP It was my first time there, I ordered Whole Line Fish, and WOW, it wasn't what I expected it to be =.= But still delicious xP and then for drinks I ordered Jungle Freeze, and oh wow... IT'S ENORMOUS !!!

Jungle Freeze

Whole Line Fish

Then after lunch we went into Bugis Village to find a bag for me =X Most bags are like so common, and yea I'm very strict with what I'm choosing, must be nice ! Then after scanning through the whole of Bugis Village, there's only 1 bag which I find attractive. I still wanted to look at more choices, so we go into Bugis Junction, then Seiyuu, but then nothing caught my attention =( So after that we went Marina Square. Saw a couple quarreling there, was like so fun =X Then scanned through the whole mall, I saw something.. nice ^^ But then I still wan to widen my range of choices, so we went to Suntec City Mall @@ We didnt see many bags there, so well, we were gonna head back, then Ice jie asked if I like chocolates, ehehe, OF COURSE I like chocolates xP So she brought me to a chocolate shops where they sell Japanese chocolates =D She bought me a box of white chocolate marshmallows, and it cost %10.90 ! My god, expensive things X.x

The marshmallow box xD

My god !!!

So we headed back to Marina Square. Went to the shop where I saw that something nice ^^ Hees, then bought it =D I was so happy xD Finally got a new bag ! Then after that jie wanted to buy some shoe laces, so we went to Ice Lemon Tea. I was looking at those shiny striking belts, I was wondering if I should buy one =X But then I don't really buy belt often, so, forget it xD

Ta da ! My holistic bag xP

After buy shoe laces, we went to Secret Recipe for dinner =) I had "Fresh catch of the day with lobster sauce" along with mushroom soup. So weird that they serve me the main dish before the mushroom soup. They actually forgotten about my mushroom soup, I'm sure ! Where got people serve main dish first then mushroom soup =.= Anyway, the fish is so nice ! and there's the Genki Sushi tv where they show the main owner of the shop competing in the japanese telecast xD Was like so exciting xP Then my watermelon juice was like, yucky, so many seeds X.X Then after dinner we were heading back to Bugis, to buy clothes ^^ Then we decided to take the shuttle bus from Marina Square to City Hall mrt station. The bus reminded us of school outings we used to have, memorable memories xD It's already 9+ I was worried that the shop that has the clothes which caught my eye will close. Unfortunately, that shop close le =( So I went to another shop to buy clothes, wth, dun hv my size again, always like that one ! Then in the end just bought 1 clothes, better than nothing lah xP

Nice?

10+ le ~ Shops are all closing already =( So we decided to go home. Took the East West Line to City Hall and then said goodbye to Ice jie who's alighting at.. erm.. somewhere after City Hall =X Took South East Line to Dhoby Ghaut then NorthEast Line straight home =) My legs were SOOOO tired X.x We actually walked throughout the day without resting excluding Lunch and Dinner X.X Then reach home le mum was making a ruckus that I told her I didnt buy those things.. It was such a pain in the neck... Anyway, it was a happy day yesterday =) Thanks Ice Jie very much for everything !

Whole new chapter =)

2007-09-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

What can I say? Wow. Hahas, a lot of things happened everytime I post, but then I don't have the time to write them down =/ Well I've found myself a job again =) I'm currently doing mac, I passed my OJE and I'll be starting work soon. Well it isnt that tough after all, don't know why some people can fail, opps =X I didnt regret joining mac, I only regretted not joining earlier, hahas, lol. With my previous working experience, doing mac is nothing hard for me =P Important thing is I learn life skills =D I don't like studying any more =( But I still have to get an O level Cert first, just hope I doesnt drop to Normal Academic next year, or retain.. I'm SOOOOO HAPPY ! Ice jie bought me 90k A cash ! THANKS A LOT !!! But then gacha items weren't that good, oh well... Next time buy mesos better =X So glad my maple eqs are like so godly-liked xP I scrolled my Green SnowShoe myself ^^ Especially happy when the 10% scroll passed for my last slot xP

My fire mage xD

Bug ^^

Roughly can still do cfm xD

Sad never x10 fm =(

Lucky 7 xD

1 vs 2 bboi still win xD

Wah seh beat up pro woh X.x

True definition of Solo X.X

Lucky ~

License ~

Haiz not enough perf..

Wonder if I can complete my license today =/ Anyway, I'm not that noob =P Good luck to me ~ Oh ya, proudly presenting u the one of the High School Musical 2 highlights, enjoy =D

Memories..

2007-08-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

I miss the audition in the past..

Things started chaging for the better..

2007-08-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog le =/ I've got so much pics and stuffs to write but I didnt have the time.. Yea, time is precious, So i decided to go for tuition, hoping my studies will reach it's ultimate peak. Well had my first E maths tuition today, it was great =) At least i understand better, compared to lessons in class.. I'm not saying the teacher is lousy or something lah, we ourself dun wan listen also. But now with tuition, focusing in class is unnecessary ^^ Well tuition was not boring actually, poor teacher always kanna suan =/ But as long as we learn, and it's a happy environment =) Lately in audition people keep asking me for couple then hp number and so on.. Well, are people that desperate to find their partners? Main point is when they dont know each other well, sooner or later they'll break, and it's common in audition now. So why do people get sad when they encounter this problem in audition, they brought this upon themselves isnt it? And I even had an ELEVEN years old girl asking me to call her big sister if she wins the match =/ Well, it's no big deal, maybe she's still immature bahx =) Anyway, my life has now become blissful.. but then, how long could it last? I fear... Well my maple character has reached level 60 =D 10 more levels to 3rd job, but then I sianz already leh, that's why I keep playing audition =X Guo Wei ar Guo Wei, help me train my character !

The Cry

2007-07-27T13:04:00.000+08:00

Today I cried.. Not anyone's fault, is my problem.. I need to let loose myself mentally.. When I'm quiet, I'm usually thinking about things, non-stop. Was walking in the rain after school, I was crying with the rain, the feeling is so great, it's as though I don't have to care for anything anymore, however.. It's temporary... The past is already over, yet it still cling onto me never letting go... The present is a present, it may be something you like, it may be not. No matter what u get, you have to accept it. You don't have a choice, do you?

I'm sad =(

2007-07-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

See they're so alike xD

What's with this picture? The ball by Fabian actually rolled back !

Guess who shoot de xD So pro sia..

HE LOOKS LIKE ME !!!

This is ME !!!

I look weird =/ Maybe bcoz this is Marcus' spec xD

BLEAHX !!!

Mr Said is a man of talent ! I worship him !

My sis got this bandana when she went for the NDP show, how is it?

Maple Snowboard O_O

So weird I can't see that guy =.=

Sianz lah... Family problem worsen.. No sign of improvement.. You know what my dad said? He actually said that he couldnt stand this family anymore.. My mum have been ignoring him, bcoz he's been such an idiot.. My dad always complain this and that, then he blame the family that everyone is unhappy... He's the one who's making people unhappy lor, he like to say things about others, then he'll say "ppl say a little then not happy already".. Plz lah, people say you you also not happy what, then why must say? Cannot keep it to yourself meh? Or maybe just say nicely lah, I say you back a little then u also not happy liao, what do you expect? You say that people in this family are like strangers, so why do you think things become like this? Even if u said things in a fury, but then everything has it's limit. From the core of my heart I know I HATE you when you say the word divorce. If this is really what you want, then proceed with it. I believe life will be better for everyone that way. You say you'll chase us out the house, it's ok, I'll take it as a challenge in life. I can spend lesser money to make sure I can still survive with little money. and I'll be following my mum of course, so that I'll not be a burden to you, since you complain that the whole family relies on you. Before you spoke those wilful words, have you actually reflect yourself? Arent these your responsibilities? I am just 15 years old this year, I AM mature enough to be sensible. You just don't know your kids well enough, I ain't just something you make out of know where and then raise me up like you shouldn't have. From young till now, you never actually understood what I'm thinking, and how I feel. When I was young, teachers always tell us during CME lesson that there is family warmth when all family members crowd together having happy moments. I don't understand that feeling, and I had never experienced it before. Therefore, I yearn to be a kid so that people like like me, give me all the love I couldn't get.. I used to dislike my mum, because she cannot buy me whatever I want.. Because she have no money =( And thus I am biase against my mum.. Now that I recap it, I feel very bad for what I have did to her, all those bad things, and hurtful words I said to her.. Now my mum know that I'm mature enough to know what I'm doing, she loosen the string that was tied on me, she believe that I won't disappoint her, and I'm very touched by her actions.. My mum used to be a housewife, but now she have to work to earn money for herself as my father no longer gives her allowance.. She is a woman too, she wants to be loved by her husband, she want her happiness, but then my father is not able to give her this all.. I can see from afar that my mum have been suffering, so whatever I can do for her, I will do my best without a word.. and stupid Guo Wei.. Do he have to be angry that I actually is noob at scrolling? It's my account what, and also just a game, do he have to get so fed up by my noobness? What do you take me for? An object for you to vent anger on? and if you cannot carry out what you say, then don't say lah, don't find excuses and put the blame on me, you can just tell me straight forward then I also wont mind de, do u have to make things until everyone gets unhappy? What is life? Life in Singapore is to start studying @ 4, then you must have at least N or O level cert to stop studying, then get a job to feed yourself, or if u have a rich family u can just enjoy the remaining of your life. Can anyone oppose what I say? I'm on all ears looking forward to that. I hate my life.

Still sianz...

2007-07-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

See! Caught by me THIRD times already xD

Guo Wei can u stop um chio-ing ! I know u're cuter than me @@

Drew these during POA lesson =/ Which one nicer?
OR

Another hacker at the top (not me) =/ You're lucky I cant reach you..

Weee I got 2 Esther Shields today xD 1 is average, another is +2 int xD

I'm lazy to write. =/ Going audi to play awhile xD

Sianz...

2007-07-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

Took this while I'm in Ang Mo Kio Hub de toilet xD

See Guo Wei um chio =/ What's Donovan doing? xD

My character's outfit in the beginning =D

Then become this :

Then this... Is it ugly?

Wonder how many rombots I killed in less than an hour's time =3

Weeee ~ Sunday went to ang mo kio hub =) Ate the soya chicken rice, I LOVE it ! Then got the tuition thingy, no matter what lan jiao grade u hv, u go for their tuition and ur grades will become A1/A2 ! I wanna join ! But no one's with me =/ Monday was BORING ! NEW ENGLISH TEACHER, SHE'S *TOOT* ! I SHALL CONTINUE TO OBSERVE HER =/ MAYBE SUCH TEACHER IS GOOD TOO, OUR CLASS DO NEED SOME DISCIPLINE =D STRICTLY NOT ON ME ! Maple quest is what's making me sianz of it.. I hate quest, sometimes, depends on my mood =/ When my dad doesnt drive me to school, the taxi does... It's always been like that.. Waste my $... Anyway, should students wear uniform? I think student shld have the freedom to choose, either wear or dont wear, as in we happy then wear not happy don't wear xD Fair enough? At least we bought the uniforms =/ Now I'm wishing for $ to fill my wallet =/ Recently missed a lot of chances to strike 4D =/ First is my storage mesos number on last Sunday(8th July) Another on last wednesday, my handphone number, zzz... Money money money ~ What's so funny ~ Had weird dreams recently too, I and her.. possible? Why is that the only thing I don't know =/ Being a child is better, u have no worries about life and can enjoy happiness playing, don't you people agree?

My new way of blogging?

2007-07-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

They say I'm cute like this =X

Can you see I'm holding a dagger?

Show u something REALLY cool !

They're so alike ! Caught by me 2 times already xD

Like that also kanna sneakshot by people =.=

Kit Kat !!! White Chocolate XD

I've got 3 already xD 1 more to go ^^

My new chain ~ Sorry I put it liddat, looks bad huh? =X

Nearly died ! Left 1 hp only, then I hurry use 3 white pot xD

Nice place, too bad there's only one person in the picture =/

You've used the com for hours, we suggest u to take a rest =/

Friday heng never go school, otherwise my life will be shortened ! There's a lot of nagging and stuffs like that, I'm wise to skip school that day =D 13th Friday, they say it's a bad day, but then I don't think so =) Saturday woke up quite early, maybe becoz I slept early on Friday. I was so tired that I fell asleep @ 8+ already, then I went to my bed and slept at around 9pm. Eva mummy called me and asked if I can accompany her to her friend's birthday party, I didnt really want to go.. She said her fren asked me to go along, and her fren says she know me ?! Anyway, my mummy pig hardly will be able to go out for some reasons, so I accompanied her =) @ 5+ Her mum was gonna fetch me to the party venue, but then they couldnt locate me =/ So I took bus to Compass Point and went to the taxi stand there and met them xD It was so hot @@ Finally we arrived at the venue. Eva's mum is going somewhere else so she left me and Eva mummy @ the party. Well I didnt had much anticipation, so I didnt had much disappointment ^^ Since it's fated I can't do anything about it ~ I get to know some elders who're all friendly to me =) But then I'm always shy when I just meet new people =/ I guess it cant be helped ~ The birthday cake was yummy too xD For some reasons just by eating 1 slice of cake and I'm full already =/ Once again Happy Birthday ! and thanks auntie for the ride xD Mummy pig emphasize me on saying it ! xD Especially the word auntie =/ Now that I've found out some things, I know how to handle reality. When u know something bad is gonna happen, will you turn tables around? Or just leave it? My answer is : Undefined.

Life in pictures...

2007-07-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

I saw this cat while going home xD

Someone sneakshot me while I was sleeping =.=

"Taiwan" xD

Bowling !!! I'm K, K for Kekiyo ! xD Also Kira xP

When was the last time I did 188bpm crazy fm =X

So far lvl 20 only xD I'm NOOB =/

Level 30 le ! Can be Crossbowman le ! xD

This is what happened when u let me see you hacking, I'll pursue u and report u xD

Those Wraith sure love me a lot xP

What am I doing? O.o

Ludi pq ! My first time xD

Maple is so memorable, made me remember last time when I play my ice mage xD Life haven't been at its highest point but it's ok I just hope everything will be fine soon... Family problems are giving me a lot of stress.. I can't predict what will happen next.. I'm already going crazy le, my behaviour in school tells u so. Let u all know something about me bahx, I'm someone who love to keep things inside myself and then I'll try to act as if nothing like such had actually happened.. Inside my heart there are a lot of untold incidents I'm facing.. I wish for happiness, but they are artificial.. Numerous drops of tears can't give u anything in exchange, maybe a moment of comfortment? Who do u ask for help when u know that god isn't gonna help you?

Confusions..

2007-07-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

I do not get it. . . What is she thinking. . . and why do I still care. . .

Back, to school =/

2007-06-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Monday

Hopefully today will be a happy day, and yep it was =) Arrived school quite early, went to play a fool with Jas and Jaz =) After national anthem there was a LONG speech by principal. That's ok with me, but then the 2 guys sitting beside me keep saying lame stuffs and keep laughing =.= It's normal tho, I guess it wouldnt last long, but I was WRONG ! I was like dying there T.T Principal's speech at least I can sleep =X But 2 of them there were soooo "noisy", why not save them and say in class X.X You could have save lifes xP Not gonna say anything bout the content tho, or else I'll be implanting land mines for myself to step =.= After that, GRACIOUS ! BACK TO CLASS ! NO MORE LAME STUFFS !!! So glad to see my friends, after 37days of holiday xP Now we have a new form teacher, wonder if it's a good news or bad news =/ Changes apply are unreversable, what can I do? =P Was telling Guo Wei and Jason about the lame stuffs, they were laughing like mad xP After reccess went to cool myself down in the aircon room xP Stayed there until assembly, that was like about 2hours plus ! Thanks god for raining but the temperature is still not cold enough !!! xP The Bei Jing video was so comical ! Especially the cherry part xD Pluck lah, pluck lah, pluck, free one leh ! Speaking of it now, I miss those days T.T How I wish e-learning will be put to use.. My friend say if put e-learning we cheat teacher also dunno. Plz lah, I cheat for what, since it's E-learning, I'll definitely do the homework... ONLINE, no doubt ! better than writing them X.X Today received the class photo xD I'll upload in the friendster when I even got the time to use my handphone camera take photo of my class photo, LOLS? Understand what toking me? hahas, gtg le, bye ~ Hope everything will go well for me =/

Kekiyo Uchida
He and his dreams.

NO !!!

2007-06-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

Sunday

NO !!! June holiday's round the corner, examination's near the table @@ Gosh it's the last day of June holiday already T.T Seriously, I dun mind going on another trip to maybe the general rubbish dump center for like 1 week =X I dun wan to go to school T.T In all case, it's a fact... Nope ! Undeniable ! SOB !!!!!!!! T.T Anyway, Had seafood just now xD and my FAVOURITE SCALLOP ! XD !!!! OK I'm crazy, let's shorten the post bahx xP Nitex everyone !!! Enjoy the last of June holiday !!!

Kekiyo Uchida
Proudly presents... [ Oh damn u shut the hell up ! ]
=/

So much for a happy life =/

2007-06-21T04:00:00.000+08:00

Thursday

It's 4am+ already I'm still not asleep =/ geez... I'm going bonkers @@ Changed blog song =D Hope u all will like it xP Anyway, so sad today, my father actually asked me if I wanna organize chalet and invite all my friends, and yet my attitude was horrible, he doesnt knows, but I know it myself, I had a horrible attitude... Haiz... I love my father, my family, just that I have an uncontrollable hatred in my heart... Now now, let's not get emotional ~ Wow did you know that somewhere in Earth a feline actually played the responsibility of a mother dog and took care of 3 puppies ! Well, it's because the mother dog of the 3 puppies had an accident, and the feline's kitty passed away for some reason, under such circumstances the feline played her part as the puppies' mother and took care of them, she fed them her own milk ya know ! xD How heartwarming.. At the same time, did u know that elephants are on the range of becoming dinosaurs? Lols, I mean becoming extinct like dinosaurs! The elephant's population hv been decreasing by about 30 thousand a year? I'm sorry I dun really remember the amount, but then if this goes on elephant WILL be EXTINCT in FIVE YEARS time! Cause : People have been doing trades of elephant tooth, and also because elephant meat are delicious, people have been comsuming elephant meat... So people out there please have a heart, STOP KILLING ELEPHANTS ! Oh yes, Indonesia chocolate company actually invested a shop in a hotel in errr France? Italy? aiya sorry i forgotten this too xP They used chocolate to make products like lipsticks, handbags, cosmetics, mainly attracting female customers. Awww, I wanna eat them !!! My imaginations were set free ! For 4 hours I was letting them run wild with someone ! So crazy the both of us xD Ehehe... So fun xD Anyway, 4 days till school reopens T.T

Kekiyo Uchida
He and his dreams.

Ressurection? =X

2007-06-18T03:08:00.000+08:00

Monday

It's 3am now and I'm still not sleeping =( Havent been having a nice sleep lately, and I can't sleep early, dunno why... Anyway people, if u dream of becoming an actor/actress, there seems to be hope for u to promote ur dream to reality =X I'll give u the website if u wanna become one, juz ask from me xP Hahas, see who so bhb... lols, jkjk xD It's good to pursue for ur own dream ;) But I doubt anyone I know would want to be =.='"

Kekiyo Uchida,
he and his dreams ;)

Hesitations ~

2007-06-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Haiz, havent been posting lately. Didnt want to. Let me do the quiz Xiu Li wanted me to do :

1. Full name: Lim Yao Ming
2. Name backwards: gniM oaY miL [O.o]
3. Were you named after someone: No I guess.
4. Meaning of name: hmmm...
5. Nickname: Kira Yamato, Kekiyo Uchida, Hitsugaya taichou, Mickey Mouse..
6. Screen name: ќēkıyо^uçhìdå
7. D.O.B: 15th November 1992
8. Place of birth: Singapore
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10. Current location: Home, Living Room.
11. Star sign: Scorpio
12. Religion: Freeloader, Buddhist.
13. Height: 170+cm?
14. Weight: hmmmm... Wish I were heavier xP
15. Shoes size: Dunno =X
16. Hair colour: Black/Brown
17. Eye colour: Black
18. Who do you look like: My parents?
19. Innie or outtie: Outtie?
20. Leftie or rightie: Rightie. =)
21: Gay, straight, be or others: STRAIGHT!
22. Best Friends: Dunno.
23. Best friend you trust most: ...
24. Favourite pals: =X
25. Best friend of opposite sex: =X
26. Best buddies: =X
27. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: What's this O.o
28. Single or attached: Single.
29. Parents: Mum and Dad
30. Worst enemy: ...
31. Favourite online guy: O.o ?
32. Favourite online girl: O.o ?
33. Craziest friend: O.o ?
34. Advice friend: =X
35. Lame friends: =X
36. Person you cry with: O.o ?
37. Any sisters: One younger.
39. Any brothers: None.
40. Any disease: Schizophrenia?
41. Pagers: None.
42. Is your room shared: Nope.
43. With who: ~
44. Cell phone: Yep.
45. Pool or hot tub: Hot tub I guess =X
46. A car: Considering.
47. Your personality: Quiet usually, sometimes will go crazy because of incidents...
48. Driving: Don't know how.
49. Room: Neat =P
50. What's missing: Good results, a wonderful past, money ...
51. School: Hougang Secondary
52. Bed colour: Current bed colour, mainly blue.
53. Relationship with parents: okok...
54. Believe in yourself: At times.
55. Believe in love at first sight: Think so.
56. Good listener: That's what I think.
57. Get along well with parents: okok...
58. Save email conversation: yep.
59. Pray: Hmmm... Can say it's a habit xP
60. Believe in reincarnation: Yep.
61. Make fun of people: Sometimes =X
62. Like to talk on phone: Sometimes.
63. Want to get married: Yup.
64. Like to drive: Maybe.
65. Motion sickness: More often when I was younger.
66. Eat stem of broccoli: Ya...
67. Eat chicken with fork: If only it's chicken chop xD
68. Dream in colour: Yes. =]
69. Type with your finger on home role: ???
70. Sleep with stuff animal: =.= I do have a BIG dog on my bed xD
71. Net to you: Part of my life ~
72. On the walls of your room: Poster, 'Pictures', small scribbles and paint.
73. On your mousepad: Mouse?
74. Dream car: ^^
75. Dream date: xP
76. Dream honeymoon spot: O.o
77. Dream husband or wife: O.o
78. Bed time: Whenever I'm sleepy.
79. Under your bed: DUST! xp
80. Single most important question: I don't know.. =/
81. Bad time of day: Whenever anything bad happens/ is about to happen.
82. Your worst fear: To be left alone, a loved one dies, not achieving/becoming anything later in life.
83. The weather is: Kinda cool
84. Time: 12.15am
85. Date: 18th June 2007
86. Best trick did on someone: ^^
87. Theme song: =X
89. Funniest experience: Too many!
90. Scariest experience: Not sure...
91. Silliest thing you ever said: hmmm...
92. Scariest thing while you're with your friends: O.o ?
93. Worst feeling: Paranoia.
94. Best feeling in the world: Happy! Having FUN!

95. AND NOW CHOOSE WHO TO DO THIS QUIZ: Do as u deem fit.

Anyway a reminder 7 days left till school reopens. To me it's hell.

Pictures xP

2007-06-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

Too bad my post box is small, I cant put the picture in bigger size xP Anyway the distance from for Singapore is 9143km. If I'm not wrong it's the distance away from North Pole xD

Look at the temperature xP It's damn freezing xP Much more colder than China, even during the rainy day.. It even made my toes freezen solid, very pain T.T

Penguins Invasion xP

Mr Polar Bear =)

Can you do me a favour and bring me back to Singapore xD

I know Christmas havent reach, but no harm taking a picture with it =P Look at the exit sign, that's all for Snow City =P There's also the slide thingy there where u sit on something and slide down from quite a height xD It was FUN ! At the same time it was freezing as well T.T After exiting the snow city, the high temperature outside was so relieving ! It's like I've been brought back from dead to live xP After that went to play the basketball game, It's about 4metres high woh, more than 2 times my height..

With just 1 shot I won myself a BIG dog xP

Hey that green bedsheet isnt mine, my bed is the blue colour bed sheet with hearts and bear xP All are bought by my mum, I didnt really choose them xD

The sun's setting =(

Me, my mum and my sis =) Photo taken by my dad xD My sis has a dog too, my dad help her get one xP
After that went to hotel and then went to have dinner xP

What's that? It's actually an image of my dinning table after dinner =X Why is it empty? Because they've all gone into my stomach xD 1kg of crabs and 2kg of lobsters, what are u thinking ! The curry simply rox ! It's not so spicy and has egg in it xD I LOVE IT !!!
After that went to Carrefour supermarket xP Guess what's this :

Ehehe... Didnt really take a lot of pics tho. I like the MK restaurant there, it's like a steamboat where u put dishes into the boiling soup xD I remembered I had numerous bowl of soup that visit xP I also played bowling there xP Still sux at it =( The McDonald there have crispy chicken, not McWing, and it's way nicer than KFC ! Because I'm not someone who like spicy taste, McDonald have the ultimate none spicy crispy chicken that's not spicy at all unlike KFC which Original's taste so, err, ordinary? KFC's crispy is nice, but it's spicy =( I also had my favourite abalone dish there ! xD It cost about S$11+ only !!! Woots, I LOVE IT TOO XD Ate the 100% original bird nest from the store which has the government's qualification or whatever thingy @ S$26+. It tasted so nice, and it's warm cause they "cook" it upon receiving order. It has the smell of egg woh, did they put egg? lols xD Bought games too, ehehehe... Anyway things over there are cheap, but I didnt buy a lot of things like I did in China, I'll get scoldings from my dad X.X There was once @ late night I went to 7-11 to buy hotdog but then my mum say she bought it @ 26baht so she gave me only this amount of money and I went down to buy my hotdog xD I didnt ask the attendant the amount too, then I just gave my order, and then I saw the small promotion board it says offer at this amount same as my mother mentioned but then when paying the cashing machine says 32baht @@ I was like pointing at the board saying it's 13baht per hotdog, then she explain to me in Thai but I dont understand X.X Then they call another guy explain to me. He speaks but little english which the main points are being said in thai, I still didnt understand xP So he get a paper and tell me the promotion time is only between this time to this time which is over already, then I finally understand. Then I tell him I only have 26baht T.T Then he say ok then take the 26baht and give me the hotdogs xD So thankful to him ! and the taxi drivers there are like, errr... They somehow gave me an unsafe feelings upon leaving X.X Anyway, I went to have haircut there, then after that the barber style my hair, then the other girls in the salon was saying things which I DO understand xP They even took photos of me woh, I'm so shy xD Wanted to dye hair too, but forget it, my hair is somehow brown already. I've to actually carry the dog on my hands to bring it back to Singapore X.X Imagine how much attention my dog have attracted, it was quite an annoyance to me, where everybody is looking at the dog, looking at me... I saw something I really wanted tho, I didnt get it... Awww... There's this female officer who was shock upon seeing my dog out from the scanning machine. It was a funny situation, hahas, other officers were laughing too xD I have this dream about this pretty lady the day before I got my dog. I was like lost in dunno where and then I decided to hail a taxi. There's 1 SLOW taxi which has engine problem or dunno what and says the taxi fare will be cheaper, then I was actually asking about the price and this lady came. Didn't notice her beauty tho, I only wanted to take the taxi home that time, and then I saw another taxi coming and I hurry rush and hail it. Then I got into the taxi and the lady actually opened the door and she asked if I'm taking it. I said sorry and closed the door and then there was this scary guy who is short like the taiwan male actor Cai Tou and his eye ball is so scary 1 big 1 small he opened the door then i hurry close it and LOCKED it then ask the driver to hurry up and drive. He was like chasing behind then I was so scared T.T He's hideous ! Then after that that lady hailed a taxi too. Then her taxi caught up and I was waving to her happily that we hailed a taxi and got rid of that scary guy. Her smile actually "zapped" me and she was waving goodbye too xD Soon we took different roads then I was like sad we parted =( She's like those lady in the past wearing skirt and holding an umbrella kind. There's a guy following her too. I believe it's not her husband, more like something like maid. The next day I can actually shoot into the basketball ring I must thanks to her, simply my luck goddess xD If only she's a reality, now I can only dream of her.. Haiz... My pretty lady, be in every of my dream, will ya? T.T Anyway I had fun in Bangkok =) Now I'm just barely alive waiting for school reopen. YUCKS ! HATE IT !

Kekiyo Uchida,
he and his dreams...

.B. .A. .C. .K.

2007-06-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Weeeee ~ I am BACK !!! Hmmm.. If you want photos, I'll upload them tomorrow, not today =P Home sweet home xD Didnt really buy anything =( Sad.. There's not even a pokemon toy in sight this time I went there @@ Cause somebody say buy toy also nevermind xP Dennis say I'm encountering blossom luck, I'm like, wth.. Geez... I think I'm having a psychological barrier X.X Someone help me T.T

Kekiyo Uchida,
a child with dreams.

Off I go, again.

2007-06-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Ehehe, I'm going overseas again =P So happy I was the one who book the tickets xD I was good oral skills =P lols, anyway, bye ~

2007-06-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Went out for dinner. Had slice fish soup at my favourite food store located @ ave 8, the one which coffee shop is directly infront of the bus stop xP That store has the best slice fish I've ever had in my life. Compared to other stores, this store's slice fish is smooth and soft, and only eating there will allow me to finish my bowl of rice, unlike other places which my bowl will have about 50% of rice left =P Saw a husky today xD It was HUGE ! Awww I love it xD Also got my first plastic $5 note xD

zzZ...

2007-06-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Wah today sleep until 2pm then wake up xP So sianz.. Did I find out something then I shouldn't know O.o ? Hees, may not be accurate de, I'll know eventually ~ Friendster was getting on my nerves.. Yesterday finish writing comment le it says maintenance, today write another one also maintenance... wtf ?! Changed my blog song =P Enjoy ~

Kekiyo Uchida
Yet another day passed.

EmO o.O ... ?

2007-06-03T00:18:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Today went to the IT exhibition in Suntec City. Walking for so long I didnt realise I've actually walked throughout the exhibition hall. Then went to the book fair... Boring ~ After that went to Marina Square.. Ate at the foodcourt. The famous "Jia Le" store is also there, so I had it's Soy Chicken Rice, Char Siew and the Pipa Duck. Soy Chicken Rice is nice, unlike normal chicken rice xP Char Siew is so soft, nice xD But the duck okok lah, got honey sauce, put le nicer. There's also one branch at Ang Mo Kio Hub xP Saw Jesslyn Teo, Inez, Xin Hong and one more I dunno de xP No wonder I kept thinking that I'll see someone I know there X.X Weird me @@ Didn't really smile much tho, seeing Inez and Jesslyn Teo I also never smile... Haiz... I just need time.. Probably the best medicine... I find the gatsby wax tv ad commercial very stupid, if I were someone in need of wax, after seeing that commercial I also dun wan buy liao... Watch the movie directed by Jack Neo at night. 1 word; Nice... Hope he make more movies, provided they are favoured by me =P Haiz may be leaving again, probably yes... I'm bored ! =(

Kekiyo Uchida.

Wind arises, leaves dances...

2007-05-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

Thursday

Today originally want go watch movie one, but then in the end never go. Haiz... Heartaches today... Something else happened and my heart aches more... If only my life is happier... Still running away from reality... Wrote a post with tears, but I decided not to post it out... I'm just a failure in everything... Just want to love and be loved... Why I want someone to pamper me like a kid, there's a reason behind it... Haiz, I've lost the battle...

Kekiyo Uchida.

Nowhere beats home...

2007-05-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back to my homeland, my home. Let me summarize what I've been through in Bei Jing for 7days =)

Day 1 : Today I woke up and ran to my com xP I'm so gonna miss it, my com is part of my life, without it I cant imagine how my life is going to be... Beng Hong ask if I want a ride to the airport, so I took his sis car to the airport, along with my mum and sis.During checking in of luggage my mum left, cause my sis is hungry. Then after that when we take group photo, tears rolled down for a moment for the absence of my mum, i can only see others' family members bidding farewell to one of us, yet I can only remain silent there, to keep my sadness within. Spent 6+ hours in the plane, I even ate 3 magnum ice creams after the meal ! I was so hungry then, only had few mouthful of rice and met before the meal on the plane. Our time of arrival was delayed due to the busy plane traffic there. The temperature at night was so cold ! Totally different from Singapore.

Day 2: Reached the hotel at around 1am+ I'm sharing room with Jason Liow, went to bath and ate 1 bowl or cup noodles, then both of us chat until 5am+ then fell asleep. 5am there is like 7am in Singapore. We have to assemble @ 7:30am, I set the alarm @ 6:45am, Jason Liow woke up at that time, but I, the one who set the alarm, woke up at 7:15am xP I have this bad habit for not waking up on time xD Aww the breakfast was like shit ! They serve us food so salty, oily, in other words poor quality ! I only like the vegetables, but it's oily ! Marcus asked if I want coffee, aww he's so good, helping me take coffee... But then... The coffee he served me... IT WAS LIKE SALT WATER !!! WHAT KIND OF RESTAURANT IS THIS! FEED THEM TO THE ANIMALS! NONONO, THE ANIMALS WOULDNT WANT IT TOO, EAT THEM YOURSELVES ! By the way the hotel is in no way affiliated to the restaurant =D So don't accuse the hotel xP After that we were heading to the forbidden city. shit man it was raining ! The temperature was like damn freaking cold, colder than my 16 degree celcius aircon at home ! Starting the weather was unfavorable to me, but then I adapted to it soon. The tour guide told us that this weather is rare during that season, why did it pick that time to rain, geez... The forbidden city is big, we didnt get to explore every single places bahx, due to the weather. Something funny I saw, inside the palace there was actually fire extinguisher, hahas, even inside the emperor chamber X.X Lunch was great, I love fish the most xD After that we went to have lessons about tea leaves, then went to "gu hua yuan" I think, summer palace? xD After that went for dinner, that restaurant serves a 100 dishes which the dowager empress eats, but in order to eat the 100 dishes, we'll have to wait for 2 days in order to finish the 100 dishes, cause they need time to prepare ingredients, and we need time to eat the dishes 1 by 1 xP I didnt like the dinner served tho, didnt eat a lot too. After that went to shop for 45mins? Bought addidas shoe for SGD$64. The others told me that that will be the last day shopping, I was like, wtf ?! Last day shopping?! It have not even started officially ! Hell... aww forget it, at least I bought a shoe to replace my wet shoe. I bought white chocolates too xP Loves them ! After that go back le, the rain still havent stop, geez... From morning until now, but the weather's not bad, better than the hot weather in Singapore, you dont need to go to air-conditioned place to cool urself xD Went back to the hotel, bathed and then went to Rui Jing and Jesslyn's room play cards xD After that went back to room to sleep xD Slept @ 2am xP

Day 3 : Today's breakfast was no better, it sux !!! Ask others !!! Even teachers agree too ! Going to Bei Jing Jing Yuan school. Made a small rocket and my first attempt was an admirable success ! It flew high for that time, but then Jun Hao Da Wei they all were better xD My continuous attempt wasn't ask good at the first attempt =X The lunch there was, errr... Fantastic? I only like the chicken nuggets, so sorry =X I'm too picky bahx =P After lunch went to play at the monkey bar area, near the field. Was there for the dunno what sale, but then the venue changed to the hall, so we went to the hall. They were selling all book kind of stuffs, nothing much for me to buy =( Then we went to the indoor basketball court on the 4th floor, played pepsi cola. Managed to beat many people, but then I lost because I thought only 1 more person is left T.T But it's ok, we had fun =D After that went down to assemble, and then went up again for the friendly basketball match. What exercise ! Sadly we didnt managed to win the opponents, but it was a good practice =D After that went off to a shopping centre xD Bought a bilabong shirt for SGD$5, and then I bought an ipod whfor SGD$28 ! xD Mdm Chua helped Da Wei bargain, because it was so cheap I bought it for the sake that it is cheap xP After buying I realised that the shop beside sells for SGD$20 ! OMFG !!! Anyway we're leaving already. Walked some distance and we reached the restaurant, food was... I just miss Singapore food T.T After that we went to watch acrobatics ! I LOVE IT !!! Never have watch them before in my life I guess. After that went back to hotel, bathed, and sleep.

Day 4 : Didnt even step into the restaurant today for breakfast. Was so hungry T.T SOBS... SOBS... SOBS... Reached the school with an empty stomach. Today I'm having lessons with the students in Bei Jing Jing Yuan School. They're all studying junior college 1, 17 years old, 2 years old than us. I sat with a girl, who is the monitress. She is quite big in size, and some were asking me if she's a "he" or "she", hahas. That girl say I looked like "Ah Niu", a Singapore singer... Then I was like, do I look like him? I enjoyed the english lesson, but not the chinese and maths lesson. Chinese lesson is about history, wah piang, history is my sleeping pill, try reading them to me I'll sleep right in front of u X.X I thought I'm going to enjoy maths lesson, but they were learning things we havent learn ! Like geometry, sin, cos, this all we havent even learn, I was like covering my eyes to hide my sleepy eyes... I have to endure that for 1 and a half hour... which is 2 periods, 1 period 45mins... After that was PE lesson ! Thanks god I'm saved ! Lied my head on the table straight after the bell rang for PE lesson. I'm so tired... PE lesson played basketball. Jasmine Toh was like so pro sia, she shot 3 pointers 2 times ! After that went for lunch. I only like the chicken fillet... xD I'm not picky, it's just that I'm not used to the food in China, they're salty and oily X.X and I'm not the only one who is "picky"... After that we have an art class, I'm so sorry I'm really not artistic, but then I'll try to develop strong artistic skills in future xD After that it's time to bid farewell. I'm not sad though, not because I'm cold blooded, because I need a better reason to be sad. I realised that we seems to be taking photo everywhere we go =.= After leaving on the bus we encountered sandstorm. It was a minor one =X Bei Jing is filled with many things Singapore don't have. I wonder is it a good thing or bad thing O.o After that went to shopping center again ! Bought an Adidas shirt for SGD$7 which is the last one which Ms Tan also wants xP, and an Adidas jacket for SGD$16. Bought 2 shoes, both are nike shoes. School shoe cost SGD$20 while the another 1, outing shoe cost SGD$30 with a mixed colour of black and gold. I also bought a wallet for my dad xD Dinner was better tonight, I ate 4 bowls of rice! Compared to the usual 1 bowl, It's a lot already xP It was at the 3 star hotel which has the price rate of a 4 star hotel because it's near the train station. Then went to Shi Sha Hai, just like the Clarke Quey in Singapore, so romantic... Then head back to hotel...

Day 5 : Went to the Ming Tomb and saw a potrait of the emperor, empress and the concubine. The concubine is prettier, who was later entitled the empress because her son was the next emperor and was against the fact that her mother doesnt have a title. Then we went to the underground cave 9 storeys deep. I and Jasmine Toh saw money then we were talking about the money xD Moneyface, arent we? xP Then after finishing exhibiting the Ming's Tomb, we to the cherry orchard. Plucked lots of cherries ! They were beautiful ! Especially the dark red and heart shape ones xD Sadly didnt take any photo to commemorate =( After that ate lunch. Lunch was delayed cause there was too many tours, just like the restaurant I'm working at =.= So I went to walk around. Bought 4 pandas =D 2 for my sis, another 2... =) Then me and Jasmine Toh rush to the restaurant cause the rest already went in xD The tour guide served us 56% alcohol white wine. Then Mdm Chua went around telling us not to drink it, it's too strong, then she walk away I want take a taste of it, then when I was about to drink it, she suddenly pop infront of me ! WTF !!! I shocked sia, heng she nvr scold me =X After lunch went to the Great Wall of China xD Climbed with Jason Liow they all in the first place, but they were taking their time, so after that I climbed with Beng Hong and other basketballers xD We were the top 10 to reach the peak, it's 888metres above sea level ! The scenery is so beautiful from up there ~ I'm so happy I was able to climb to the peak xD So tired sia, took a lot of photos, then later go back down, bought a bronze certificate medal to commemorate that I've climbed to the peak of GWOC. The first shop I've been to has poor skills, he even asked me to carve my name myself. Wasted 2 of his bronze medal cert, and I didnt even pay him a single cent, such poor quality service, Even if u sell me for 1cent I also don't want ! Then the 2nd shop was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better than the 1st shop. me, Ms Tan, Auntie Gina, Jason Liow made 1, it cost SGD$8, quite cheap bahx. After climbing went for dinner, I'm famished ! Dinner wasn't so nice though, had beer, was so bitter, like usual bahx X.X After that went to watch the face changing thingy, then go back hotel...

Day 6 : Wah it's saturday already T.T Today's breakfast is held somewhere else, better than the one before, WAY better. Generally they're dim sums, and a porridge. Weird thing is there's vegetables, yikes. After that went to the Marco Polo bridge, there's 526 lions there ! Of course not real lions lah.. zzZ... After that went to the anti-japanese museum. Then had lunch, go shop again xD I bought 2 suit. 1 for SGD$60, another for SGD$120 XP Also bought a shirt for SGD$13. Aww those 2 suits are my bao beis xP Then headed for dinner, Bei Jing Roast Duck ! XD The skin is VERY crispy, but the meat is normal I guess xD Then I drank 3 sips of the 52% alcohol white wine, but I'm not drunk at all woh =X I wonder how I'm like when I'm drunk xD So curious, but I can't be drunk at this age... It will only bring trouble xP Then after that waited at the streets, Auntie Gina and the tour guide went to buy beers. Anyway Auntie Gina promised me to buy Grape wine for me, yay ;) In the bus sang Tong Hua =D So unfair only few of us sang, everyone should sing de lor ! xD Reached the hotel then I was so high, last night in Bei Jing ~ Was packing my luggage, but then so sianz, then became tired. Went to Beng Hong room play dai di, then dunno who come tell me Auntie Gina fell asleep. Originally we were gonna drink till drunk at her room, but then since she sleep le, sobs ~ Then they were holding a signing ceremony on the Bei Jing shirts. Cause I havent bath, then go bath first, then go to Mdm Chua and Miss Tan's room where they're signing. Sadly I forgotten to write for Mdm Chua ! I'M SO SORRY !!! T.T Mdm Chua have been taking good care of us during the trip, I hope I can give her something in return, as well as to other teachers, Mrs Cheng, Miss Tan, and of course Auntie Gina too =D I went back to my room to pack stuffs, but then I saw my suit, so I wore it and took some pics xD After taking enough pictures, I continued packing my stuffs, then was so sleepy, cause I'm sitting near to the fridge, then I was drinking marinda orange, then my head was like keep falling, somehow like a drunkard xD Then I went to lie on my bed, not daring to fall asleep cause I'm holding the card key while Jason Liow is still outside X.X So I called him to take the key then he take le I fell alseep with ease. The day before I actually locked him outside =X I was holding the card key, and fell asleep at Beng Hong and Yu Chuan's room, I felt so guilty sia X.X

Day 7 : Awww we're going back today =( Went to a restaurant with the country's unique special class symbol ! But then we didnt had xiao long bao =( Ate quite a lot of egg tarts xD After that went to take trishaw to a local house, then make dumplings there... Then after that we go airport le T.T The peach wine Dennis bought was left undrinked, cause it cant be opened xP But we managed to open it, then we all chiong ar try to finish the wine xD I love it man ! Sadly the owner didnt get to drink it xP Hell the airport things are so expensive !!! French Fries cost SGD$7 !!! GEEZ... ok, finished the fries, went to the check in counter. The plane was delayed, again. In the plane sat with Beng Hong and Dennis. Told Beng Hong about the sad reality. Then I was like crazy, letting him hear classic music until he buey ta han, and I was laughing there non stop, Dennis was laughing too ! Ate 3 plates of pork with fried rice xD Ehehe... Stupid lah, after watching 200pounds beauty, I play games then keep crashing... Sianz... So I decided to sleep. Woke up le then the plane was gonna land soon... Slept on Beng Hong and Dennis with a pillow. Haiz I miss the times where I lie my head on my dad's shoulder. Now I don't do it often le, bcoz of my age... Took a ride by Beng Hong's sis =D Told my father not to come fetch me, cause I didnt want to get emotional.. Reached home le only see my dad, where's my mum and sis? They went overseas =( So tired, slept @ 2am...

Monday
Had a "good" night sleep. Nobody's at home, on the com, saw something and I was so sad, felt like crying. Why didnt you do anything, haiz... All this while I've been denying reality... Even though I'm always making others accepting reality, me myself have been running away from a lot of things... Should I, or should I not... Was so angry that I'm being accused for doing little actions to seduce other people's cup of tea ! It's so sacarstic ! Only that happens in drama, but wtf it happened on me... Stupid... My mind's in a maze, questions unanswered...

Tuesday
Today went for Dental Appointment and I was late for 42mins ! X.X Usually only latest late for 10mins only, today was so terrible... After that went to the food exhibition. Had 4 bowls of shark fin xP So few sia... Bought m&m cookies ! But then the Kudos thingy is out of stock, sad =( Damn those people who bought it and never leave some for me ! ROARS ! I realised I didnt smile much today... My body is me, my mind is my thoughts, while my heart is my true feelings. I have serious schizophrenia, what I did that time on the plane reflects it... Tomorrow going East Coast Park... Haiz, my beauty sleep ~ xD Am so envious of couples who're in love with each other...

Kekiyo Uchida
Sadistic follower
Put down hatred and you will hold happiness.

Count down - 16hours

2007-05-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Prepared everything, now just need to wait for them to be packed xP Haiz, sobbies, in moments less than 24hours I'm going overseas le... This korean show Foxy Lady is so touching, directed by the director of " I am kim sam soon", about a love story between a 24 years old guy and 33 years old woman. The woman has a perfect guy who she's dating who is a doctor, and is rich. she soon fell in love with him. but this guy who is 24 years old, her best pal's brother, fell in love with her, for some reason(watch the show urself to know more xP). Her best pal lost her parents when she was young, and since then both her pal and her pal's brother have been living with her family. After a lot of obstacles, she and her pal's bro finally got together, but it is still unacceptable towards her only parent, her mum, and her pal. In order to seperate them, her pal made her bro go for army for 2 years, and thus the couple left 15days before the guy leaves for army. In between for some reasons the guy requested for a break up, and thus they broke up, but how will the ending be for the 9 years gaps couple? xD
Today happily playing audition before going to Bei Jing, but then this person bringing an extra person to my room to bo song me. nnb, u bring ur fren come play that's fine with me, u want do small actions to make urself like what I don't care, but if ur fren don't know manners then I'll have to teach him, what's wrong with that? Fancy being a great gero, why not look urself at the mirror first.

Changed my blog song, enjoy =D
Everlasting Song
Into the light, I will take you up there
To your homeland of evergreen..
Every moment of life, is a quest for the love
Leave it now in mystery..

Come for the song of eternity
You are my everlasting SONG
I want to be the only one for you..
We'll never be apart
Come now fly with me..

Into the land, I will fly me up there
To the song of ETERNITY..
Every wish and desire, leads me back to the light
Leave it now in mystery..

My Everlasting Song..
Come fly with me..

Kekiyo Uchida
drowned by sorrow.

Count Down - 2 days

2007-05-20T00:34:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Hmmmm.. 2 more days before departure for Bei Jing. Haiz haven't even pack luggage X.X Anyway, today my parents are working, never bring me go out buy things... zzZ... My RO Server is not so perfect tho, got a lot damn errors, what's wrong with my data?! Forget it, I guess my server will be off during my trip to bei jing bahx, cause many people havent download yet, and the server is not so presentable. See how things go bahx... Jealousy is hateful, I hate that feeling =( Happiness beats everything, just hope the trip to Bei Jing is a happy one =D

Kekiyo Uchida,
Distorted minds,
Complicated feelings...

Holiday commences!

2007-05-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

Friday

Weeeee, today is friday! Last day of school for me! Will be going to Bei Jing next week as a school exchange. Will soooo gonna miss my friends T.T Went to discovery center today, hmmmm.. after that reach sch @ 12+ me, Beng Hong, Choon Keat, Jason, Kenneth and Tuan Hung go Hougang Green Taiwanese house eat xD after that go Choon Keat house help him download RO, then watch Final Approach, it's a very nice anime xD 4+ went back home, then reached home le I went sleeping, must have been tired, obviously X.X 12am Guo Wei download RO files everything ready le then play my server, but so sianz =( I dunno what to organize to make server more fun... zzZ... It's late now already, nitez.

Kekiyo Uchida,
Nothing bypasses happiness...

Frustration...

2007-05-15T14:47:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Got back almost all the results? All got back all the results le. Anyway it was badly done, no point describing and bad it is, I wont get any marks. So angry today, Donovan keep pulling my chair I want pull back then he keep pulling, wtf lor. I tried to sit down even knowing I may fall, but then he don't care lor, It's really very irritating, nothing to do come ka jiao other ppl for what, now I fall down le you happy liao? I turned the table twice, then Rui Jing kao bei me. I want turn the table cannot meh, it's a form of release for me, if you're not happy with it juz diam diam and go away lah. I don't why you're always picking on me, I got offend u in anyway ar? siao gina... Hate my past... I used to be a very naughty boy, get angry easily and just scratch them with my fingernails... and there I got my attention from the principal, discipline master... I did change a little when I know this girl, whom I fell in love with. May be puppy love, or maybe not. I always call her at night, chatting with her over the phone. I remembered I once told her that I like her, then say that we'll get married someday, I go to work then dismissed go back home she do dinner for me and mushy stuffs... Wonder where I get those ideas from =.= My previous life? Haiz... I don't wan my past... I just want to be a nice person in life... Those shady days are no more... Sob...

Kekiyo Uchida,
A guy who hate his past...

As a result...

2007-05-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Monday

Finally created RO Private Server, but dunno how to do scripts T.T So ma fan... Played O2Jam... SI BEI JIA LAT ! I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO IT ! XD PLAY FOR 3 HOURS THEN LVL 6 LE XP I ROX !!! There's so many games to play X.X and seriously it will cause me to neglect my studies X.X zzZ... Today got back some SA1 results, disappointment will do to describe. After school go to do Savage Army thingy as CIP points. It was fun, I was so occupied there that I forget about problems in life... Today I went crazy again, laughing laughing laughing... Too bad, this is a form of release for me... SMILE =D Spent some time thinking... What I can take, I'll take. I can only observe things from here, that is what I can do... and what I wish most not to do. No matter what, my heart will only live ONE person... Whoever it may be, I will allow no space for ANOTHER ONE... When the water subsides the rocks emerge; the whole things comes to light... Hope upcoming results won't turn up as a even bigger disappointment

Kekiyo Uchida,
unlike Frozen Throne...

Letting go and accepting.

2007-05-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

Friday

Haiz... Decided to make a Ragnarok Online Private Server, but there will be a lot of problems... I can't just make anyone, everyone GM just as they want or else what's the point ? I'll throw this aside first... Anyway, have been troubled by myself. What have I been thinking? Feelings that are extra, or just a way to replace injuries. I'm not injured, that's all I know, but, WHAT HAVE I BEEN THINKING ABOUT ?! What is love anyway? Explanation alone is not enough, experiences are more useful... Haiz... It's better to observe things from the back, never walk infront unless you know what you're going to get, and is something u wanna get. Sob. Give me your heart =( I'm living in confused @@

Kekiyo Uchida
Entangled feelings unresolved T.T

It all ended.

2007-05-08T11:22:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Sigh... Exams ended, but what's the point. You had exams, but u did poorly. It may be a form of release but you don't seemed to know that you are carrying a very big rock on your shoulders. Yes, it all ended, whatever u think should have ended, but u never realise that in exchange, something else started. Feel like shutting myself to the outside world, but I shall be kind to myself. Yesterday played audition until 11:50pm, was chatting all the way after winning thousands of dens through 8k npc. From room to lobby, then lobby to room again. diaos. Haiz so bored, going to East Coast Park later, hope to have much fun, disposing all the unnecessary emotions and worries.

Back from East Coast Park. Rents bicycles for $5 3 hours ! Still got 1 free bottle of mineral water. 9 of us went cycling, me, Beng Hong, Choon Keat, Guo Wei, Jason, Kah Jun, Kenneth Lim, Linus and Tuan Hung. Wah I had a fall today xP I was accelerating then my leg can't reach the paddling thingy, then I lost control and fell. I injured my knee, juz skin damages. My shoulders also kanna xP Now like blue black xP My hand only got red mark, dunno why they never go away xD We ride to Changi there, but no more cycling area, so we went a long distance back xD It was, errr... fun =D But I hate BIG red ants ! There were bunch of them ! zzZ... Then at 7-11 encounter 3 gays, 1 come bui song us, kns ! Were we staring in the first place? Just see only mah, human nature instinct, also not against law. Ownself hum ji then go away, come bother us in the first place for what, na bei chee bye, you must be orphan lah, if I'm your parents I also will abadon u, this kind of si gina, kao pei kao bu so much, guai lan, and I'm du lan-ed. Forget it, I hate quarrels, I'll try to avoid a fight if I can. Is hum ji also can, not hum ji also can, bo bian. After that return the bikes. Then on the way back to bus stop which the way we took 43 here. Went to basketball court then want have a basketball match =.= I'm so tired already, no energy play xP Borrow the ball from an uncle. Finish 1 match le then go bus stop take bus. Decided to go Kovan Pizza Hut eat. Guo Wei, Kenneth and Linus went home. We stop at school back gate there then take 101 to Kovan xP My first time eating pizza in my whole life ! Hawaiian flavour. So funny sia, becoz of the price then service charge $7.20 ! Each of us pay $1.20, Kah Jun was like, wah, so expensive, then he put a lot of cheese on his pizza =.= We waited so long for the pizza, 1 after another. I believe if we want complain it's reasonable. We should not pay the service charge, or rather it's too high. I dont think the waitress who serve our first pizza was polite. She put the pizza on the table so hard that it created a sound and she just left like that. No sorry, no enjoy your meal. The rest were polite. Anyway, after finishing pizza, went to kopitiam. The rest went home then left me and Beng Hong. He want go kopitiam buy food for his maid and himself @.@ OMFG, after a meal of pizza he's still not full ! Unlike me X.X Then we went to the bus stop. He say w8 for 325, but there was not 325 @.@ Then we missed a 101 bus, but it's ok =D Reached home at 9:45, phew the anime I wanna watch havent end xP Such a tiring day, gonna sleep now, nitez !

Kekiyo Uchida
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZ.........

So bored...

2007-05-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

Saturday

Life nowadays is so bored, exams are such a burden in life =( Thinking of making RO Private Server, but I have to make sure my shoulders can carry it. So sianz, 2 more days and I'm exam-freed ! But @ the same time the fear of doing BADLY from exam remains T.T Awww forget it. June holiday working plan, hmmm... no work no $ xP My $ left from my pays are almost gone, now I'm going to earn them back again xD
Change my blog song to a song which suits me now. awww, my favourite song have to be replaces xP What to post now? Hmmmm...

Kekiyo Uchida
WOOSH ! THERE GOES ~

Freed.

2007-05-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

Hmmmm... Today went playing basketball again, but was not in form =( After that went Hougang Mall, then went Taiwanese House again. Have been there lately to eat X.X The food there must be very nice ! =P Want study History, but still slacking T.T I hereby pray for good SA1 results =D Hope my prayers will be answered. What kind of person am I anyway? My mind is in a mess, I dont what to do... Haiz... No mood to post like usual. Damn shit, boooooooooo ~

Kekiyo Uchida
WOOSH ! THERE GOES ~

Concentration !

2007-05-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Wasn't able to sleep well yesterday. In fact I only sleep for a moment. I don't know whether I made my decisions right. But it's ok, life is like this =D Haiz tomorrow is chinese paper le, today still go out =P Went out with Jason and his her, Beng Hong, Kah Jun, Nick. Wanted to watch Spiderman III, but then all tickets are sold out. Then wanted to watch 200 pounds beauty, but the show is at 9pm which is considered late for some of us. From Plaza Sing walk to Orchard Cineleisure(dunno how to spell) then walk to Plaza Sing again @@. Nick went home when we're heading back to Plaza Sing. After that went to arcade, then play until 8pm all of them going home le. I went to pc bunk after that, to search for an answer. My prayers were answered, at least I have a direction in life =D I'm perfectly fine, for a naked eye. I'll believe in fate, for some reasons xP So tired now. Stupid phone I put random then give me all sad songs @.@ ! What the hell lah, weird weird one. weeeee, going to sleep le, there's nothing for me to do to stay awake now anyway. Nitez.

Kekiyo Uchida
WOOSH, THERE GOES ~

Awww

2007-04-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Shit man, didnt memorise anything for social studies yet... I'm so dead X.X Dont wanna sleep, cause if I do I dont feel like waking up anymore T.T I have to do well for my SA1... Haiz... I will sacrifice my sleep to do well for SA1 ! Even sent 10 smses to make sure I do well, don't wanna fail... That's the last thing I wanna do T.T Changed my blog song my favourite anime song among all others =D Hope everyone will like it =)

Kekiyo Uchida
Vanishes @ 2317hrs on 290407
*boof*

Commence of SA1 !

2007-04-28T00:34:00.001+08:00

Friday

It's the commence of SA1 today ! Took english paper, it was like, bloody hell difficult. I'm not confident of passing... I hope there'll be a miracle... Let me do well, as I get $50 for 1 A, $200 per A for 2 As, and $1000 per A for 3 As and above xD I dont mind not taking the money, just let me do well ! T.T Was confident that I wrote well for compo, but includes risk of out of point X.X There's always a risk of writing out of point in most of the compo I do. I hope things go for the better... Letter writing, wonder if I wrote enough words... T.T After school went to ave 8 as Choon Keat and Fabian wanna cut hair. I, Beng Hong, Guo Wei, Jason, Kah Jun, Kenneth, Tuan Hung then go there de mac eat settle down. But the mac is full with people then we go Hougang Green de mac eat. Had a surprise encounter with Jesslyn, Ke Xin, Rui Jing, Shu Min. They were at the soyabean store next to Hougang Green Macdonald. They told me Elaine, Yan Ling and E Ching at Long John, then I go Mac put bag then visit them. Went to sit at Long John awhile then later go back Mac Beng Hong they all still havent buy food yet X.X Then I go to the Taiwanese House find Shu Min they all. When I just enter, I can smell the fragrance of the food, it smells heavenly XP Then Beng Hong also follow me, but went back after a moment. I decided to eat there xD Anyway finished eating then go back Mac saw Choon Keat Fabian with their hair cut. Then Shu Min they all come mac see their hair cut, hahas. After that we also going le, wanted to play basketball, but it was raining. Decided to go home, but then changed my mind, went to Beng Hong house. Fabian, Kenneth and Tuan Hung went home. After that the rain kinda stopped, we decided to go play. But then there's thunder, then I keep saying how deadly a thunder is then Guo Wei they all don't want go play liao xD Then went back up again take bag then decided to go home. After that on the way home Beng Hong called me telling me that I forgotten to bring my books home. Went back to take my books, then realised Guo Wei didnt bring his socks home, hahas. On my way walking home I thought of some things. What I should do and what I should not do. A responsibility is a responsibility, no matter what happens it is still my responsible. I don't know what she's thinking now, but I've straighten my thoughts. Everything I do I should solve it smiling, not angry so as to not make myself easily defeated. I had a lot of tatics in my head, but they arent useful to my studies... Haiz... Life should change for the better. I'm not going for tuition tomorrow, so sad. So I'll just remain tuition-less. This is a big risk to me, and I know it. A green apple may not be sour, it depence on the person eating it. People say abnormal ppl must have committed sin in the previous life. But then, people who commit sin now, do their previous life also commited sin? If so who are the ones who have no previous life? What causes the erupt of sin? Haiz... Let me sleep bahx, my body need rest, I shouldnt spoil it out of selfishness.

Kekiyo Uchida
Vanishes @ 0034hrs 280407.
*boof*

The sadness spread

2007-04-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

Haiz, nowadays no mood to post... SA1 is round the corner, all I want now is to get good grades so that my overall % rate of passing will get higher... I don't want to retain... I've had headache nowadays... Have been ill for weeks already. One after another... Haiz... Troubled by a lot of things... Was always quite confident, but now I don't know what's going on. Am I falling into a trap? It is so hard to judge things just by appearance. A green apple may be sour, flower may not always bloom from a seed. Haiz... Life is just so sad.

Kekiyo Uchida,
Vanishes @ 2300hrs on 260407
*boof*

Days continued...

2007-04-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Thursday
Today so tired, I'm so sleepy... Played frisby during pe lesson but didnt do so well... So disappointed with myself. Next time pe lesson must happier =D then other lessons have been slacking never listen one... Sob... I dont want to retain... I dont want to get a bad O level cert... I want to do well so that I can get a good job which must have at least 10k a month ! Then I can look after my parents, if got people want me then look after my wife =X Haiz... I have not been me lately... If you observe me very well u really will think I have schizophrenia... Split personality. So sleepy lor me, only wants to sleep throughout the day... Good thing I washed my face b4 attending Physics lesson or else I'll be in out cold mode. Today I went for air rifle =D Wow the gun was really heavy. Practical was a piece of cake, only need to remember 6 only, then I go spend extra time memorising EVERYTHING, zzZ... The coach said I did quite well =D But I'm not happy with my performance yet, but I believe I'm good for a beginner xD Not being bhb lah, is I really feel that way, please dont suan me xP

Wednesday
Sianz, today principle nag... Also not my fault, feel so sleepy in the hall, zzZ... He NAGGED for TWO PERIODS ! 1HOURS++ !!! They all make sense but I know I'm fine even without hearing his nagging. After school went home then was so tired and sick. Have been sick continously, high fever, headache, running nose, then high fever again, then cough until now. Stupid lah, why am I so sickish out of a sudden... I do eat vegetables you know ! zzZ... Sianz... Nothing much to post...

Tuesday
Today I no need go school =) Went to pluck 2 teeth. There wasn't much pain at all they just made my lips numb so that I barely feel anything. When they were plucking I was in conscious mode ! I'm so worried about pain and so on but everything went on very well. Then go see my personal dentist help me check then I can go le =D There's 2 things inside my mouth to prevent the bleeding, the dentist told me to bite down hard and give it pressure so that it is more effective xP The 2 things inside my mouth made me cannot close my mouth and I sort of look like an idiot !!! Oh ya when I was waiting for the numbness then before plucking the 2 teeth the dentist ask me why am I so sad. See, like that dentist also can see through my sadness, what more can I hide. Maybe he's a psychic =X Went home and used com, transferred everything from my 1 gb memory card to my 2 gb memory card. The numbness was active around my lips, chin. The numbness made me touch something SO GROSS ! Yucky, I don't know how to describe the feeling, all I know is... EEYER !!! LOLS. Yay I'm going to Art Fiesta and I know it ! I've prepared my clothes and everything ready and I'll STORM the whole of ART FIESTA !!! LOLS =.= Left house @ 5:50pm, reached Victoria Threatre Hall @ around 6:35pm? Hahas, first saw Jasmine Toh, Rui Jing, Jason Liow, they all. They were looking at how I dressed up then wow-ing here wow-ing there xD After that go find Beng Hong they all. Went into the theatre then Joyce saw me say I very shuai O.o Should be because what I'm wearing is very nice bahx xD After that went in to the concert hall and find a seat. Sat beside Beng Hong then saw a lot of people xD At first Miss Tan the art teacher come sit beside me, then later she go le Mrs Goh the physics teacher sit beside me X.X Then soon the perfomance started, welcome the vip guests ~ ~ ~ diaos =.= Josephine also say I shuai, then I pai seh xP Dunno what to say =X Before the performance started I Beng Hong, Choon Keat were looking for nice figures chiobus =P During the interval I was SO HUNGRY ! For the whole day I only had half bowl of fish porridge ! I wouldnt be me if I'm not hungry xP After that went outside with Rui Jing then stretch my body, Marilyn and Yan Ling decided to leave then I and Rui Jing go back inside lor. My seat occupied by 2 strangers women. Oh well, don't wanna spoil the happy mood, I went to the seats in front then sit with Jasmine Toh and Chin Kiang. Then the performance started, for guitar alumni, from audience seat, looking to the stage direction at far right got 1 chio bu ! Woots, I love long hair chio bu, it's better if the chio bu is tall xD Then the band so funny, the girl at the back her instrument is 2 big thing and u have to clash them together as if clapping ur hands. Everytime she do that her hair flies, hahas. Then for angklung and gulintan(dunno how to spell) 1 of the angklung was spoilt =X After the performance went to take mrt home with Beng Hong and frens. Later at mrt station met up with many other frens, Dennis, Jasmine Toh, Jason Liow, Rui Jing they all. There's so many hs ! So fun xD Rui Jing they all went to Kovan eat mac, while I and Beng Hong they all plus Dennis go Hougang Mall. Me, Beng Hong, Jason, Kah Jun and Tuan Hung went to Mac eat, after that Jason, Kah Jun and Tuan Hung take bus home, then me and Beng Hong walk home xD I didnt really went home straight away yet =X I went to Hougang Green find Jasmine mummy and her Gu Zheng buddies. Also saw Yi Rong and Shawn Chan. When Jasmine mummy and frens finish eating, all of us go home xD I escort Jasmine mummy to her block then we took 1 photo xD Then after that went home... Everybody were asleep already O.o

Monday
Today so sianx, go to school watch basketball match then sit until backside pain =.= Went for VERY early recess, then later go classroom... WAH, like Intergrated Resort like that, everybody were gambling =X School was dismissed @ 12:35pm today then after dismissal me, Beng Hong, Choon Keat, Fabian, Guo Wei, Jason and Tuan Hung go Punggol CC there play basketball. So tyco sia me scored a lot then anyhow play also score =X hahas, then after that go Beng Hong house play Mahjong, Beng Hong play Norbit for us to watch. The fat girl is SOOOO gross, yucky, zzZ... 6+ then we all go home le. I was exhausted, go home lie down on sofa then fell asleep xD Tomorrow I'm going to pluck 2 teeth, and also Art Fiesta. I wanna go and hope time passes faster xP

Kekiyo Uchida vanishes @ 2351hrs *boof*
I did what I can, after all it takes another hand to dance...
Love u is my responsibility, but you seem to not care...

Sadistic me...

2007-04-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Today went to offer my prayings to my late grandfather and grandmother. The weather was hot but most of the time there's no sun. After that went to goat farm. It was raining O.o Wanted to buy chocolate goat milk xD But out of stock le =.= zzZ... So my sis wanted to feed the goat, so we bought the goat food looks like grass liddat then go feed em xD They were meh-ing here meh-ing there, so cute ! There's baby goat, and adult goat. omg I saw 2 adult goats peeing =.= So... xD After that finish feeding le then my dad say want go fish farm =.= But in the end never go =D After that went home. I wanted to use the com, but my mum's using it ! Oh well, I waitied from 5:15pm to 6:45pm then she finally let me use the com. Played audition, then later use another account go competition then didnt pay attention to the number tag-liked thingy, got 200+, dunno give 500dens or what then leave the room =.= Stupid. After that let my sis use the com. 9:45 use the com again play audition =D Well I was accompanying daddy and mummy pig as they didnt play with me for very long le xD They were thrashed badly by me =X Hahas, then after that they go le went to play couple dance. pmed dar but she seems to be inactive, so I play a few rounds first lor. pmed Nickolas he also never reply me, stupid. Then after that when 2 ppl go le, played 145bpm de song choreography, was lagging then I lost to her X.X After that I told her to play 188, then she suggested Sync Crazy 4, ehehehe... THEN WAS THRASHED BADLY BY ME !!! WAHAHAHAHA !!! But I did badly too T.T Was sleepy then I only do 1 normal fm or 2 dun rmb le. After that going to sleep then pmed dar she say want go sleep le, hahas, I also. Asking for her respond to the long message yesterday but she like so blur, zzZ... Worst meets worst, things seems to be going unexpectedly. If only I know her more, haiz... She's the only one I mind other than my family... She doesn't seem to realise, but what has been going through me was tough, I kept things low profile just to not make a big fuss out of it, but... Haiz... It's my fault to let things go on easy, everything can only be my fault, blaming others doesnt solve things especially to those ppl who arent repentant... Right now I wish there are people who can stay by my side and cheer me up... I fell badly this time...

Saturday
Today went to Ang Mo Kio hub there buy 2 long pants xD They cost $69 each xP So glad my mum didnt nag me for buying them =D My dad brought my sis to Wild Wild Wet play then when they're out me and my mum go amk =P Had McDonald 6pc nugget for my dinner, after that go home. My another mummy who I know through maple had bgr problem with my that daddy. Stupid lah that daddy say I don't know the story, ask him tell me he say what got time @ msn tell me. Reply also take so low to reply, knn, so poor thing lor my mummy she and him together for quite long le then for some reason got this 3rd party. Fuck that daddy for being unloyal to my mummy, he say was confused, is that a reasonsible act? Making my mummy so miserable, then I ask him tell me the whole story also dont want tell me, FUCK HIM LAH ! What kind of role model is this? I wouldnt be like him, if something like that really happened, I will hurry up and make a decision and not make other ppl's life miserable. Other than my dar, I will not fall in love with someone else, NEVER...

Friday
Today I got back all my ca2 results. It was badly done, THE WORST I'VE EVER DONE !. ok, ca2 results is small, but thinking of something else aches my heart. I didnt thought I would do that, but eventually I did it. Other than primary school, I've never do that since I entered secondary school. How shameful, but at least I know that my family matters to me a lot. One of the wounds inside me, they can never be healed or will they vanishes, maybe it can be healed... Just a small percent chance... After school I was playing Mahjong with CK they all, then play until like 1+ then decided to go. Didnt keep track of the time and it flew so fast X.X Still have to go home bath, buy present for Jesslyn's birthday, then go K meet them. Reached K @ 4+, met Rui Jing's fren, Glenn. He's a nice guy who is very, err... active? Dunno how to describe him lah. He treat us K, so thankful xD Jesslyn's cake was very nice xD I love cakes especially chocolate cake xP Everybody seems to eat finish their pieces and are leaving but I still having eat finish =.= I know I'm a slow eater xD After that some left then I and the remainders went to Compass Point. Went there shop awhile then going home le =( Jesslyn, Marilyn and I took 161 home then Shu Min and Ke Xin took dunno 156 or 159 then never go to our bus stop then Marilyn called Ke Xin then tell complain to Shu Min xD Shu Min and Ke Xin alight @ night market there then they dunno shop until when. If I know they gonna go home late I'd have accompanied em xD

Kekiyo Uchida
Vanishes @ 0045hrs... *boof*
My heart turned into broken pieces once again, I have to find and join them back AGAIN, one by one...

150407

2007-04-15T01:24:00.000+08:00

Sad-day.

Finally I have my com fixed =) So happy. Friday was a sad day, truth revealed to the naked eye. I did something I'd never do infront of other ppl, I also once again prove that I'm very concerned about my family. Sec 3 CA2 was the worst CA ever ! Maybe it's because I slack too much le. All this while I had been hiding my emotions, what emotions can I show? I can only smile, that is the least I could do not to burden others. I realised that the life I'm leading is a very sad one. Although I have almost all the things I wanted, there are still some things that I cannot get, attain, achieve. Wounds that scar-ed me, how I wish they would go away, healed, or vanishes, but it's impossible. Life is a possibility - Possible and Impossible. Many people may not have planned for the future, but keep this in mind, life is a reality, there is no such things as rewind, if only, and whatsoever. Haiz, I've got A LOT A LOT things want post de, but... either is not convenient, forget le, or lazy post. So late le, I go sleep le bahx, zzZ...

Tuesday

2007-03-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

Wah... It have been 6 days since I last updated... You know why? BECAUSE MY COM SPOIL LE !!! T.T Stupid lah I may be going to use my own $ to buy a new com or fix it or whatever way I NEED AN AVAILABLE COM !!! Stupid lah... Now at my fren house, he help me with my homeworks ^^ So grateful. I still have lots of things to do, hope the day I use my own com to post blog reach soon... 1 more thing, I'VE GOT MYSELF A NEW PHONE !!! WOOTS !!! YIPEE !!! LALALA ~ ~ ~ ( Crazy =.= )

Wednesday

2007-03-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

Today is a sad day for some, happy day for some as well. Chin Kiang, Marcus, Shu Min, Ke Xin, Rui Jing, Jesslyn Phua, Jasmine, Jia Ling, Jason Liow and me all going for Bei Jing thingy. Hope things go well. After school dismiss we went to ava for Bei Jing trip briefing. Then after that stay in class do english and cme project... Go home le jiu sleep until 8+... Haiz... I have been very tired since school reopened, wonder what's going to happen to me. Grave mistake I made today, can anybody see that I have schizophrenia? I think I have tho... Haiz...

Kekiyo Uchida
Disconnected @ 2246hrs

Du lan !!!
Disconnected @ 0052hrs

Tuesday

2007-03-21T01:18:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

First period PE, took a long time b4 everyone gathered. Poor teacher go through so much for us but everything went in vain... Last period CME teacher never come. Asked Guo Wei go home with me he don't want, at his seat sleeping... Bell ring le then he "vanished" =.= I hurry go locker put book then walk home knowing that I'll see him later cause he sure walk very slow one xP After that saw 3T1 de Joel, but then even though he saw Guo Wei and ran fast, I still ran faster than him xD Reached home le I was so sleepy... Was playing my NDS on my bed then I keep closing my eyes then still want play xP Continued that way until 4pm my sis come back then my eyes never close le but still sleepy. I off my NDS then slept at 5pm+ until 8pm+ then wake up eat dinner. So boring... Was finding a song for some time but finally found it, wahahahas. Changed my blog music, hope u like it =) Tomorrow is gonna be a sad day... I hope I can at least do something... SMILE !

Kekiyo Uchida
Disconnected @ 0018 hrs.

[堕落天使]

Oh ?

Hope. Wish. Pray..

Recollection

Love :o

Happy birthday to me!!!

Misses

Narrative writing.

Happy April Fool Day =)

Lady Luck's boy =D

(=^_^=)

Fallen in Love...

Super Saturday X.x

Happy Chinese New Year

Sunny day =)

Enlightenment

Fear..

Emo ar..

Different views..

Fallen Blade...

BUA outing

Out again =)

Tired/Sick.

School.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

24th November 2007

Over Seas.

Soon =)

Congruency? Similarity? O.o

A picture with hidden meanings...

Yet, another birthday =)

Counting down 1 year. LOLS.

Finally =)

Moments...

Weeeee xP

Errors X.x

Haiz...

僕の「静の子」 =D

A distant, and transient dream...

小病是福 xD

Fate.

Hungry X.x

The past and the future.

Boring

Changes undergoing...

Not again =/

Friday the emo night.

新しい希望

最後の希望

If there's no sufferings, there's no compassion.

Monsoon =(

Exams the root of all evil xD

Illusion..

So tired..

...

Hmmm..

"Shopping"

Whole new chapter =)

Memories..

Things started chaging for the better..

The Cry

I'm sad =(

Still sianz...

Sianz...

My new way of blogging?

Life in pictures...

Confusions..

Back, to school =/

NO !!!

So much for a happy life =/

Ressurection? =X

Hesitations ~

Pictures xP

.B. .A. .C. .K.

Off I go, again.

zzZ...

EmO o.O ... ?

Wind arises, leaves dances...

Nowhere beats home...

Count down - 16hours

僕の「静の子」　=D